I hate my life so much... it’s like no one can either see or wants to respond to the posts I’m making... I wanna die... huddle up in a corner.... I just want someone ANYONE to listen to my story....

Im listening

I dont know your story, this is the first im reading this

i want to know your story

Hello I’m Listening!

I didnt get it

Ok i got it

So it seems very confusing, and I definitely had those similar experiences, but honestly its your ocd. I could reassure you and tell you that you dont like kids but the show potrayed tatsumaki as an adult and the adult features of her were what appealed to you and you just ignored what others would consider lolicon features...but again those are just reassurances and short time relief. What you need is erp and a therapist who will provide that service to you. Its hard, but its all about accepting the uncertainty. You are not accepting pedophilia, you are just rewiring your brain's faulty way of over exagerrating events that challenge our moral core. Your brain wants 100% certainty, and you can't give that. But you can give is the willingness to accept uncertainty, and by doing that all of what you previously believed were to be good would come back to you naturally, and everything would go back to normal. But you have to put in the work. Erp(exposure response therapy) is stressful and anxiety inducung but so is OCD. Pick the one that wont doom you.

And i dont think you are a pedophile, ocd will make you think that because it wants you to be certain you are not. It sounds confusing but it makes sense. You fear becoming a pedophile, so your ocd brain will bring any and everything to 'test' you and check whether you are one. Believe it does this so well that it feels real but its not.

Ok so if you sent something new, i didnt get it and lol again i dont believe you are a pedo or a map. You are a guy struggling with ocd

Trust me. I need you to read it.... It’s about my POCD again

I didnt get it

Yeah i cant see it for some reason