All I want to do is ask for reassurance about every single thought I have. I really don’t know how I’ll ever be able to accept the uncertainty when the thoughts are about my sexuality, I feel like I have to work everything out. It doesn’t help that I’ve never been in a relationship and I’m a virgin, so I don’t even have past experiences I can rely on :((

Yes I guess you’re right, I’m just so worried that I’m in denial and I’ll never be able to have a relationship. I don’t want to have this constant battle with myself anymore, I just want to be confident knowing who I am and I’m so worried that I’ll do erp and realise that I am actually bi/ gay :(

@MelodyOCD OCD craves certainty and makes you think in black in white. If I knew I would be happy, but now I don't know and that's why I am not

@MelodyOCD This is a very common fear, with ERP. I also have it kind of

@MelodyOCD Why would you get triggered in the first place if you are actually bi/gay ?

@MelodyOCD Why would you brain recognize the thought as a threat to you?

@Daria Alexandrovna It does seem to be really common, my brain always makes me think I’m the exception which sucks so bad :( I just want to be a child again so I don’t have to worry about these things

@MelodyOCD This is kind of reassuring (me saying that), but still. ERP is made so that you don't stress over the thoughts and can see clearly what it is (with time). Or just live your life without a sense of without thw sense of urgency to solve it and put your life on pause

@Daria Alexandrovna The thought of this triggers me a lot, that once I’ve been though erp I might realise I am bi gay, or did you mean I’ll see it is clearly just ocd?

@MelodyOCD There's no certainty. I am saying that most likely you'd see that your fear aren't real.

@Daria Alexandrovna Yes you’re right, sorry I was kinda asking for reassurance there, I had a bit of a panic haha

@MelodyOCD No problem! We all want it.

Awh thank you, I’ve been struggling at the moment but I’m properly starting erp this week so hoping it’ll get better! :)

And if the case is that i turn gay later, i can’t do anything about it. Ocd is nearly almost the same as overthinking, and it’s the thoughts that scare us not the reality. So if I figure out later in late that I am gay I can’t do anything but accept it. But to be clear, I do not think I am gay or bi, if I felt like being with a woman and if that made me happy I would do it, but I don’t want to be mean to myself and sabotage great relationships with guys later. That is what I wanted before this and therefore I will continue to be true to myself,

@🥰 It’s so nice (even tho ocd is awful and don’t wish it upon anyone) to hear about other people going through the same thing as you, it makes me feel much less alone! It sounds like you’re smashing these ocd thoughts! I’ll try and take your advice and think the same way you do, you seem to have such a positive outlook ☺️

@MelodyOCD Thank you so nice to Hear!! I am struggling from time to time with these thoughts, struggling with depression, anxiety and ocd so I am not always this positive to be honest..

Because you don't want it, maybe. That would be the basic explanation. I also struggle with this, my OCD doesn't let me just think 'Oh I have ROCD bc I am scared to loose my bf'. It also scares me with a thought that I am in denial.

@Daria Alexandrovna Yeah it’s a horrible thought isn’t it :( I’m really sorry you’re struggling with this too, it sucks

@MelodyOCD Yes, terrible, this thought tries to hold me in the arms of ocd

@Daria Alexandrovna I’m so sorry :( I’m the same I have about a billion thoughts which keep me in the ocd loop

@MelodyOCD Same