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i have a similar thing with goodbye rituals when i leave the house, if i miss a name i have to start all over. for stuff where i feel like something bad is going to happen i try to condition myself to ignore them by instead of thinking "if i dont do this someone will die", ill think "if i dont do this that chair will turn blue right now". that way when you ignore it you can have visual proof that nothing happened
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That’s such a great idea! I never thought about it like that! Thank you so much for sharing!
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I can definitely 100% relate to this, reading your comment made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I have set prayers that I say throughout the day on a daily basis, every morning I have to say them, and many other times throughout the day when I get a worry or an anxious thought, and just like you, if I mess up or say something incorrectly, or it simply just doesn’t feel satisfactory, then I will have to start all over again. I do these ‘set prayers’ to wipe out negative thoughts and worries that occur, or out of fear that something bad will happen, so I pray to prevent it from happening. And like you, I can’t go a day without it because I fear that if I don’t do them, then the things I’m praying to prevent from happening, will happen. I do these prayers continuously throughout the day and it’s exhausting, it also stems to my Contamination OCD because some of my set prayers are me praying about not getting ill or contaminated, but there are also many other themes and topics that I pray about- but it’s exhausting and I can totally relate to you.
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Thank you so much for replying! It absolutely helps knowing that I’m not the only person who struggles with this. It has always bothered me throughout the years, but I’m starting to take a real look at my life and self lately and this is the number one obstacle that I feel like is holding me back from the life I want. I am mentally exhausted. It makes me tired, and so then I just sleep when I’m free just so I can get a break. I don’t want to be like this anymore, so I really need to figure out how to manage it.
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I'm similar. Had Scrupulosity / Religion and Moral OCD for about 6ish years. After about a year of thinking and struggling I decided I didn't believe in my religion anymore, so I decided if I didn't believe in it then there was no reason to pray. I still don't believe in that Religion but I've decided there's got to be SOMETHING higher than us, a form of Creator or God, whatever that may be, a deity or not. I tried praying about 6 months ago or so and suddenly my scrupulosity came rushing back, the praying compulsions (including starting it over and feeling guilty if had an inappropriate / intrusive thoughts or feeling), the guilt, obsessing over my thoughts and feelings, etc. Currently working through it with therapy.
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Thank you so much for sharing! I actually used to pray when I was younger, and I remember one day I just said I’m not doing this anymore.. and i stopped doing it until about 7 years ago, and now I don’t even have the obsession I feel like.. I just feel so off, that I need to pray or something bad will happen. I will have to start over several times because I don’t like certain numbers. It’s definitely interfering with life.
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