Can I ask for prayer? I had a real event OCD and I am not getting completely over it.....I don't know if I am being a perfectionist or what......what I did is hard to explain....with all of what's going on I am on the suicidal side. I feel like I need to talk to a therapist soon....even my old one that is not completely trained in OCD(but not sure if it's a good idea).....I have an appointment the 15th of April...it is hard to wait that long....I am so confused on what I did...what it means....how bad it is, etc....I don't want to trigger others but I am sure some would think what I did was shameful but one person said it wasn't really bad at all.....I have talked about it so much...I can't stand that it happened--I need Gods help.....I am scared God is mad at me.....I have had a ridiculous time w/OCD this last year----

This doesn't really make me feel better....I am not even sure if I should feel guilty.....I am confused.

@Anonymous I mean I don't know if you meant to or not but it seems you are insinuating that I should feel guilty......maybe I should....I don't know.....sometimes people on here are pretty hard on others it seems.......maybe you meant well but this makes me feel sick.

@Anonymous I think that a better way to think about it would be what I suggested. Let it work itself out. If you want God's help, you got to let Him work

@anthonys Thanks again...I imagine I should stop this conversation tonight...I would appreciate prayer.... I wish I could talk to you from time to time...but not sure if your comfortable with it......I mean we probably aren't even in the same age bracket....I am pretty old for this group.

@Anonymous I followed you on here and I may pop in from time to time.

@anthonys Thanks, please hang in there too.....I know your going through a lot......I hope I didn't trigger you.

@Anonymous You didn't trigger me

We've talked before, and I don't want the OCD to bully you. I've dealt with things that I still regret doing that I think/thought were sins. However, if it's still on my mind, chances are they're not. Try doing some ERP. Feel uncomfortable

@anthonys I am not even versed in ERP.....sorry if I sound self engrossed.....I was on some supplements I shouldn't have been on......I thought I needed the supplements to fight Covid but it was making my OCD worse.

@anthonys You have given me the most hope but I just can't believe this.....I want to talk more but I sense your done with the subject and there is a possibility I could be upsetting you and your OCD......I was hoping by now that God would give me "peace beyond understanding"....

@Anonymous Maybe you need to pray and say to God something like"God, I am stressed about this issue. I'm not sure whether I did something wrong or not. Please give me wisdom on whether or not I did something wrong. If I did nothing wrong, help me to accept that and move on. If I did something wrong, help me to accept Your forgiveness. In Jesus' name, Amen.

@anthonys Thanks....sorry if I am stressing you out...I am a mess.....I am mad too becsuse cats are very sensitive and she plays with me a little different.....either that or I am reading into something I shouldn't be.......I am a bit schizophrenic or bi-polar or something as well......I am just really sick.