OKAY THIS IS FREAKING ME OUT AM I A PEDO. I like Sadie sink and defiently found her attractive in season 3 of stranger things when she was 17. So that’s perfectly fair . But idk if I was attracted to her in season 2 or if it was my anxiety talking . She was 14.5 and I was 16.5 ish or 16 and 6 -7 months and she was 14 and 5 months . So at max I was 2 years and 2 months older than what she was then. I look at her pics from then now and she’s beautiful but looks like a child . I think of her how id think of My kid sisters friends . I wouldn’t ever date a 14 year old !. Like I remember feeling something panicking and searching up her age and it showed 18 so I was like oh okay whatever who cares if I liked her ! But omg did I actually ? Now she’s 14 and SHE LOOKED 14!!!! I don’t have a crush on her now . Was that just a POCD bout ? I can’t remember if I checked her out since if she was 18 then it’s fine . Idk . UGH .

Thanks for helping . I’m just scared i was a pedophile for liking a 14 year old when I was 16. I thought she was just a youngish looking 18 year old ! I don’t know why I thought that like she looks 14!

@lucy.wilefirr That doesn't fit the requirement. There's three criteria for pedophilia. 1. Strong sexual urges, fantasies, desires that persist for 6+ months 2. You have to at least be 16 and 5 years older than the subject 3. And the children of their desire are generally prepubsbscent meaning 13 and under. So you were 16, only 2 year age difference, and she was above 13. Doesn't meat the criteria.

@PRYM Meet lol

@PRYM It’s just so freaky . Like I’m looking at her now at 17, and how could I have been possibly attracted to her ? Like it’s April and this was from last summer . I’m looking at her face and she looks like a child ! She is a child. I also recall watching season 2 and thinking she’s super cool and awesome , but “sexy” but I remember looking at her feeling something and then searching up her age . But I remember being interested in the 20 something actors more than her . And god I was so dumb for thinking she’s 18! I remember being more into her in season 3, just thinking about how cool she was season 2. I can’t remember exactly when I searched up her age and was relieved which season that was . It could have been season 2, maybe for a like a second , could that have just been POCD ? I can’t stop ruminating . By the way thansk for helping

@lucy.wilefirr This sounds like POCD. You found her attractive and changed your mind when you realized how childlike she looked. Sometimes it's hard to tell how old someone is. I knew this one girl super small girl had VERY young features like you could easily think she's 14 but she was like 27. It's not always easy to tell just by looks how old someone is. Some people look young for their age, some look older, it's confusing sometimes. You're not bad for finding someone attractive. And even after you found out the truth you were repulsed. This just doesn't scream pedo. If you let this overwhelm you it will never find a resolution to it because your mind will always find a way to make you feel bad for it. YOU WILL NOT BEAT YOUR MIND. Your mind knows everything you fear, everything you do and don't want to be. It will always have the one up on you so you have to not give in to its desire for clarity and just let the thoughts come and go. It's super uncomfortable but over time youll notice things about it. When I get POCD kinda thoughts I try my hardest not to engage and let it just flood my mind and just see what I notice. And what I notice is regardless of the urges and other sensations, the disgusting thoughts, there's always terror, anxiety, the anxiety of not having anxiety, it's clearly not lined up with my self perception, that's all I need to know. If I spend a second longer trying to make sure it doesn't line up or "what if" the thoughts get you in a stranglehold. Just passively be aware of them.

@PRYM Thanks for replying. I tried to do a checking compulsion and kinda make myself find her season 3 character attractive but not her season 2 character but occasionally mistook her season 2 and season 3 characters . Compulsions really just make things even worse . Her face barely changed from 14-17. In season 2, she was also made to look like a child . Most of what my thought were just “you’re so cool” than “you’re so hot “, idk it’s all strange . Thank you for helping again