need help or tips? i've been spiraling because i have confession compulsion and i have this fear that once my boyfriend finds out the themes of my OCD, he'll leave me. he loves me and tells me he'll always be by my side but before i kind of confessed that my mind kind of has his followers memorized because of compulsions i've performed before and he admitted that it slightly turned him off because "damn that's something else" but it wasn't a dealbreaker... can't help but think if he thinks that's something else then he is definitely gonna be turned off after he finds out about my POCD especially now it kind of involved his younger nephew or about Harm OCD or Pure O Really need help to overcome this. I have this urge to confess to him and try to make him understand to get that reassurance from him that even after knowing these he won't leave me but I also don't want to bc not a lot of people will understand or be comfortable about it esp we've only been together for a few months

My boyfriend knows I have OCD but I don't know if he knows how bad and fucked up it can get (from Harm OCD, to POCD) so far there's this stigma with OCD that it's just wanting things to be organized and having little ticks. When I explain things I have this habit (OCD related) that it needs to be detailed as possible or else it'll feel like i'm leaving things out and it could be a sign of me being a dishonest partner. It's most probably too soon in our relationship as we've only been together for months. As I said I don't think he knows how bad it can get but I'm hoping he understands that it's my sickness that makes me think of fucked up stuff like that especially that he's a nurse so maybe he has more of a scientific grasp on it. When I do explain OCD to him do you think I should go into detail? and yes! it's a paramore reference. after laughter really is the album of my life :) glad to see a fan here too

Thank you so much. One last thing, sometimes I find it hard to believe that he can actually love me without the knowledge of my OCD themes too. Like will he still love me if he knew? all that. It's really hard especially he's probably the first official relationship I've had and I've never felt this way about anyone before. I'm sure he'll understand intrusive thoughts, just not sure if he's accepting if it involves his family already. Trying not to confess since I highly feel it's a compulsion as well and i'm supposed to help myself. And yes! After Laughter's a great album, I'm an artist and it highly inspired my art 😊

Will do. Thank you so much.

@rosecoloredgirl I agree, ocd attacks what we care about. The themes aren’t your fault. Confessing would give them to much power, and might damage your relationship. Talking to a therapist about them is definitely the right move.

@long distance runner “OCD attacks what we care about” write this on my headstone plz