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No. I’ve never been interested in kids. I always loved women around my age and I always talked about dating them. I have so many adult women on my Instagram and I’m talking to a woman that’s 22.
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@POCDKILLME I think that he's saying is porn escalation could be a possible answer because you eventually grow tired of all kinds of content you desensitize yourself too and loli content was one of the videos you've managed to stumble upon. If you cut porn out of your life completely, there will be improvements. With OCD, that's way harder and I would know because I honestly struggle with the exact same things as you from this post
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Well let's just start with what can you do to not repeat these mistakes? That's step one.
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I don’t ever wanna be a pedo in denial 😭😭😭😭😭
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@POCDKILLME I don't think you are one. But the real way to be free from any mistakes you've made in the past is how to avoid doing the same behavior again. That's the biggest redemption you can have is improving.
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@POCDKILLME Idk how many times I can tell you I don't think you're one lol. I really don't. I just think you made some mistakes. Curiosity gone a little too far, you realized what was wrong with it and have the proper response to it, guilt. But the next step from guilt is to forgive yourself and learn from it. And I what I mean by learn is understanding why you did the things you did and how you can avoid the same behavior again. If you don't do the same thing again it's irrelevant if you're a pedo or not because you aren't engaging in that behavior so there is no one being harmed by you. At that point you'd just have bad thoughts. And from what I've been reading from you, you desire women 18+, so even if you have these thoughts but only interact with adult women, who is being hurt by these thoughts? What real world damage is being done other than you being grossed out by your mind's contents?
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@PRYM I don’t ever want to do ANYTHING with kids. I don’t even wanna think about kids. I don’t want to have kids... I’d rather die than be a pedo in denial... there was this anime I watched with two kids as the main characters and the girl was flirting with the guy. I acted along some scenes because I act alongside movie scenes all the time and I wished that I could get a girl my age who flirted with me (hence why I liked women who were flirty that were my age in cartoons and real life) I’m getting intrusive thoughts about the anime constantly and I think that was the start to this whole “loli” thing because I was on YouTube and they posted it in the comments... I don’t ever wanna be a pedo in denial... I don’t ever wanna watch the anime again... and I don’t ever wanna even think about kids, let alone in that way.... I’d rather die
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@POCDKILLME I believe you don't want to do anything. Your disgust is obvious. See the thing here is pedos usually aren't in denial in any other situation other than those where they can get in trouble. Its something they don't feel much guilt for. You're saying the complete opposite. And just because you saw some stuff thats loli doesn't mean you're a pedo. Loli is a common anime trope. Does it go too far a lot of times? Yes. But does that mean everyone that watches anime with young characters secretly is a pedo? Probably not. Like you said you were basically acting along the scenes from what sounds like if you just were in the same situation. Not an adult preying on a child but two people of equal maturity. Just because you imagined this from something having young characters doesn't mean you're a pedo. You're thinking way too far into this. I understand why, you're terrified but rest assure your terror is a great indication of you not being a pedo.
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@PRYM I hope you read the comment I sent to you about 30 minutes ago...
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when you were 16 you were also young 😉.
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@johndoe32 🤨📸
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It's gonna be oke man
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It doesn’t feel like it....
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I think I know what honestly is what caused my OCD. I’ve never told anyone this but I have to if I want help. When I was either 10 or 11, I think 10 I was at my family’s thanksgiving dinner. Around this time I discovered porn and got addicted. I would watch porn and read erotica. Because of this I guess I wanted to experiment. I feel absolutely horrible just thinking about this but I was playing around with my little cousin, he was around 7 I think and I remember we were playing chase or hide and seek, and I grabbed him and hugged him (something I never done before), and got a boner. I did this for pleasure. That’s all I did that was sexual but I feel so horrible. I try to give myself grace as I was only 10 and didn’t know the consequences of something so disgusting. I keep thinking “what if I went farther and hurt him?”. I talk to him sometimes and he seems comfortable with me and I think he doesn’t even remember this ever happened and just thought I hugged him for some reason all those years ago. I am NOT attracted to him at all but I think this incident and remembering it when I was 14 has caused my OCD such as POCD for all these years. I am 18 now but I feel absolutely horrible. And now it’s even worse because I have been invited to his 15th birthday party in Mexico. I’m traveling all the way to another country just to be near him! Obviously I know I won’t touch him or be innopropriate with him. But what if he has felt uncomfortable with me all this time? He seems fine with me and not uncomfortable around me but still. If I feel as if I go to this trip, I am a horrible person. I don’t know what to do. Am I a horrible person for what I did and continuing to be around him? I remember reading Reddit and Quora stories of similar people who felt horrible and people told them to not feel bad as they were only children and they learned and now know that was wrong and that to not tell anyone as it could only make things extremely awkward.Please help. I know COCSA is a very serious topic that harms people and I feel like a horrible perpetrator now.
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Hi everyone, I'm struggling with what I think are intrusive thoughts, possibly related to OCD, and I'm hoping someone here might relate. When I was younger, in my early teens, I went through a period where I had a strong interest in pornography. During that time, I encountered hentai involving male characters, related to an anime I enjoyed. One of the characters was someone I even looked up to. I feel incredibly uncomfortable admitting this, but I believe I engaged in sexual activity related to it. Years later, I'm plagued by intrusive thoughts about this. I feel intense self-disgust and shame. It's like this memory has "tainted" my ability to enjoy that anime, and sometimes other things. I'm constantly replaying the situation in my mind, questioning my past actions, and worrying about what it means about me. The anxiety is significantly impacting my life. Does anyone else experience intrusive thoughts focused on past events, particularly those that cause feelings of shame or disgust? How do you cope with the constant replaying and questioning? I'm looking for support and understanding. Thank you for listening.
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