POCD 18+ I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for the past m/o to loli hentai and other explicit fanfics with young cartoon characters occasionally when I was 16-18. I stopped two years ago, and I’m 19 now but I’m getting intrusive memories of doing it and I immensely regret it. I hate myself forever. And you people should hate me too. I’m worthless. I’m a disgusting creature who deserves nothing but the upmost anger and disgust from you all... god help me...

No. I’ve never been interested in kids. I always loved women around my age and I always talked about dating them. I have so many adult women on my Instagram and I’m talking to a woman that’s 22.

@POCDKILLME I think that he's saying is porn escalation could be a possible answer because you eventually grow tired of all kinds of content you desensitize yourself too and loli content was one of the videos you've managed to stumble upon. If you cut porn out of your life completely, there will be improvements. With OCD, that's way harder and I would know because I honestly struggle with the exact same things as you from this post

I don’t ever wanna be a pedo in denial 😭😭😭😭😭

@POCDKILLME I don't think you are one. But the real way to be free from any mistakes you've made in the past is how to avoid doing the same behavior again. That's the biggest redemption you can have is improving.

@POCDKILLME Idk how many times I can tell you I don't think you're one lol. I really don't. I just think you made some mistakes. Curiosity gone a little too far, you realized what was wrong with it and have the proper response to it, guilt. But the next step from guilt is to forgive yourself and learn from it. And I what I mean by learn is understanding why you did the things you did and how you can avoid the same behavior again. If you don't do the same thing again it's irrelevant if you're a pedo or not because you aren't engaging in that behavior so there is no one being harmed by you. At that point you'd just have bad thoughts. And from what I've been reading from you, you desire women 18+, so even if you have these thoughts but only interact with adult women, who is being hurt by these thoughts? What real world damage is being done other than you being grossed out by your mind's contents?

@PRYM I don’t ever want to do ANYTHING with kids. I don’t even wanna think about kids. I don’t want to have kids... I’d rather die than be a pedo in denial... there was this anime I watched with two kids as the main characters and the girl was flirting with the guy. I acted along some scenes because I act alongside movie scenes all the time and I wished that I could get a girl my age who flirted with me (hence why I liked women who were flirty that were my age in cartoons and real life) I’m getting intrusive thoughts about the anime constantly and I think that was the start to this whole “loli” thing because I was on YouTube and they posted it in the comments... I don’t ever wanna be a pedo in denial... I don’t ever wanna watch the anime again... and I don’t ever wanna even think about kids, let alone in that way.... I’d rather die

@POCDKILLME I believe you don't want to do anything. Your disgust is obvious. See the thing here is pedos usually aren't in denial in any other situation other than those where they can get in trouble. Its something they don't feel much guilt for. You're saying the complete opposite. And just because you saw some stuff thats loli doesn't mean you're a pedo. Loli is a common anime trope. Does it go too far a lot of times? Yes. But does that mean everyone that watches anime with young characters secretly is a pedo? Probably not. Like you said you were basically acting along the scenes from what sounds like if you just were in the same situation. Not an adult preying on a child but two people of equal maturity. Just because you imagined this from something having young characters doesn't mean you're a pedo. You're thinking way too far into this. I understand why, you're terrified but rest assure your terror is a great indication of you not being a pedo.

@PRYM I hope you read the comment I sent to you about 30 minutes ago...

@johndoe32 🤨📸

It doesn’t feel like it....