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No. I’ve never been interested in kids. I always loved women around my age and I always talked about dating them. I have so many adult women on my Instagram and I’m talking to a woman that’s 22.
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@POCDKILLME I think that he's saying is porn escalation could be a possible answer because you eventually grow tired of all kinds of content you desensitize yourself too and loli content was one of the videos you've managed to stumble upon. If you cut porn out of your life completely, there will be improvements. With OCD, that's way harder and I would know because I honestly struggle with the exact same things as you from this post
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Well let's just start with what can you do to not repeat these mistakes? That's step one.
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I don’t ever wanna be a pedo in denial 😭😭😭😭😭
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@POCDKILLME I don't think you are one. But the real way to be free from any mistakes you've made in the past is how to avoid doing the same behavior again. That's the biggest redemption you can have is improving.
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@POCDKILLME Idk how many times I can tell you I don't think you're one lol. I really don't. I just think you made some mistakes. Curiosity gone a little too far, you realized what was wrong with it and have the proper response to it, guilt. But the next step from guilt is to forgive yourself and learn from it. And I what I mean by learn is understanding why you did the things you did and how you can avoid the same behavior again. If you don't do the same thing again it's irrelevant if you're a pedo or not because you aren't engaging in that behavior so there is no one being harmed by you. At that point you'd just have bad thoughts. And from what I've been reading from you, you desire women 18+, so even if you have these thoughts but only interact with adult women, who is being hurt by these thoughts? What real world damage is being done other than you being grossed out by your mind's contents?
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@PRYM I don’t ever want to do ANYTHING with kids. I don’t even wanna think about kids. I don’t want to have kids... I’d rather die than be a pedo in denial... there was this anime I watched with two kids as the main characters and the girl was flirting with the guy. I acted along some scenes because I act alongside movie scenes all the time and I wished that I could get a girl my age who flirted with me (hence why I liked women who were flirty that were my age in cartoons and real life) I’m getting intrusive thoughts about the anime constantly and I think that was the start to this whole “loli” thing because I was on YouTube and they posted it in the comments... I don’t ever wanna be a pedo in denial... I don’t ever wanna watch the anime again... and I don’t ever wanna even think about kids, let alone in that way.... I’d rather die
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@POCDKILLME I believe you don't want to do anything. Your disgust is obvious. See the thing here is pedos usually aren't in denial in any other situation other than those where they can get in trouble. Its something they don't feel much guilt for. You're saying the complete opposite. And just because you saw some stuff thats loli doesn't mean you're a pedo. Loli is a common anime trope. Does it go too far a lot of times? Yes. But does that mean everyone that watches anime with young characters secretly is a pedo? Probably not. Like you said you were basically acting along the scenes from what sounds like if you just were in the same situation. Not an adult preying on a child but two people of equal maturity. Just because you imagined this from something having young characters doesn't mean you're a pedo. You're thinking way too far into this. I understand why, you're terrified but rest assure your terror is a great indication of you not being a pedo.
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@PRYM I hope you read the comment I sent to you about 30 minutes ago...
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when you were 16 you were also young 😉.
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@johndoe32 🤨📸
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It's gonna be oke man
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It doesn’t feel like it....
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i need some advice!! when i was 16, i was watching an anime and this character had abs and he was 12. i remember at the time (from what i can remember), i made a weird comment on his physique. saying things like “omg how did he become this buff haha.” and “oh im going to jail.” i even said “it’s only a 4 year difference.” like WHAT?!? just because it’s a 4 year difference, doesn’t make it okay. its WEIRD!! why would i say that? i also want to mention that i have a hard time keeping my thoughts to myself bc of my ADHD, so i tend to blurt things out. i just find it disturbing that i would have such thoughts, let alone say it out loud. i never had attraction to kids bc its immorally wrong and disgusting, but i feel no different from the ppl who would hurt children irl. I’ve tried forgive myself multiple times, but what i did is irredeemable. i feel like i am using my OCD as an excuse. i am so scared that i am a p, i want to d1e. my life is ruined.
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Getting eaten alive by thoughts right now, when I was a child me and other kids around my age would experiment and do things we shouldn’t have, I’m talking very young, like 3-5 as I got older I was for whatever reason always curious to a horrible extent and it lead me to do in appropriate things to kids around me, I was 7-8 at the time. I would say it happened 3 times in total in my childhood. And i eventually told my parents the last time it happened because even though I didn’t know it at the time. I had ocd. And I knew it was bad. That was when it all started. I feel absolutely disgusted with my 7 year old self and it comes up every once in a while especially when I hear anything about sexual abuse. I’m nearly 20 now and I enjoy my life for the most part and I’ve been down the ocd path before but I feel unforgivable. And I never want to tell anyone about it, but my ocd seems to want that. I have a beautiful girlfriend that had some traumatic things happen to her and I love her with my soul. I don’t ever want that to come up. Because that’s not who I am. When will I be able to forgive myself? If at all I hope I’m not alone.
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I'm 17 years old I struggle with addiction I have a problem when I masterbate I have intrusive thoughts idk if I think them I'm so scared also back then I know when I was younger I looked at obscure things hentai all that my idk what to do even I feel like I'm a monster or im a bad person I need help I feel so distraught I feel like I can't live life to the fullest anymore even from last year I looked at content that was animated but it had a character in it that was underage I felt so ashamed and felt like a monster I had a compulsion to check it only to find out they are not around my age range idk what to do I probably sound like a freak I'm sorry I'm always trying to replay my memory and try to remember my intention and what I was doing how I come across how I was doing a action yk all that
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