Had a really bad panic attack a week ago. During the panic attack I was afraid I would never come out of it. Eventually with Klonopin I did, but I’m hyper aware of every sensation, constantly scanning for anxiety. I now feel like I will never come out of this high anxiety state, I’ve developed harm ocd from derealization and thinking “this won’t stop until I go crazy and kill myself” I’ve never been this bad before. I need advice desperately. How can I stop automatic checking my body sensations/mental state? I can’t even watch tv without intrusive thought of “you’re anxious. This will never go away.”

What do I do when I can’t even watch tv for 30 seconds without the thoughts popping up. I’m starting to avoid tv

@devanmharris You watch TV and you let the thoughts be there. Don't interact with them. Let the anxiety go up and come back down cause it will and then you'll get some freedom. Like I hear you thoughts. I'm gonna let you be here and I'm gonna watch TV.

Yes, yes it can. Not to trigger anyone but I had a massive anxiety attack on zoloft that left me with ptsd... but I also was denied medical treatment for several hours so that aided to the ptsd

@Jess I was actually going to try and go off pristiq and on to Zoloft tomorrow. Now I’m nervous. I started pristiq the day of my panic attack

@devanmharris Don't be nervous over my experience. I had taken it 2 times before and never had an issue. Everyone is different and we have to trust our bodies.

@Jess Omg that sounds so bad. How are you now?

@Kls2121 It's been a hard year because of course my OCD latched onto it. I've done a lot of work to fight through everyday. Making progress!

@Jess Did your ocd get worse on it or was it the anxiety? Are you still on it. I am so sorry that hspodnd to you. They should not of left you untreated like that.

@Kls2121 The anxiety got worse on it. I have taken no meds since then except 2 ativan at 2 different hospital visits for panic attack. All other anxiety moments I've lived through and faced on my own. The ocd has only improved since doing ERP and the ptsd has improved since improving my ocd so that I actually wasn't scared to do the trauma work I needed to do for the ptsd. I tell ya it's exhausting for all of us. Now in the past when on zoloft the 2 other times I did not have OCD thoughts.

@Jess You should really be proud of yourself. You really came along way. I know its hard. Its exhausting for all of us. I am soooo scared to start meds. But I think I need to try. Having kids makes this so much harder for me.

@Kls2121 Just get the information ahead of time and make the best informed decision for yourself. Believe me I wish I could take medicine to make it go away or help but that is not the best decision for me. And yes.. . The kids... I get it. Thank you for your support and good luck with your decision.

Yes just started meds. Been on them a week.

@devanmharris Any luck so far or is making it worse?

@devanmharris What are you on?

@Kls2121 Pristiq- 50 mg. Seems to just be getting worse, although no panic attacks

@devanmharris I'm so sorry. Thats the scary thing. Definitely tell your doctor. If its to bad maybe you need to change the meds. Are you ok though?

@Kls2121 I am really scared.. I have periods where I am okay though. I just feel like I’m going crazy

@devanmharris Your not alone. Please try and stay strong. Have you told your doctor?

@Kls2121 Yes, I have a med appointment tomorrow

@devanmharris Great!!! Because obviously this one must not be working for this. I know it can get worse before getting better but not like this right?