I found evidence that I’m a pedophile. So sometimes I’m fantasizing about an adult male but the voice sounds younger but I dismissed it . Then I saw a post about subs , and how flustered they get and thought of a wide eyed curly haired dude but he looked very childlike , which was not my intention but I didn’t notice I had that thought until a lot later . Then I searched up the cast of my tv show and remembered my childhood crush who’s 14 in the show and then my mind was like oh yeah that hot guy and elginikse feelings of attraction and a picture of his face but kinda older looking popped up in my head had my mind went hot . Then I looked at him , like real pictures of him and he’s as attractive to me as a sandwich . Still , I can’t help but feel like it means something . Like In the mental picture all his features were sharper and more defined like a 16 year old instead of a child but idk if it’s just a mental image from another angle . You know how sometimes people look a bit older at some angles maybe it’s a legitimate picture from the tv show I’m so nervous that I’m attracted to a 14 year old ew!! Like there’s 3 seasons , he’s 16 in the last one but I wasn’t too into that show and only watched the first season I think I’m so nervous what if that mental image was a real picture of high and not a mental picture of him. ??