Melodyocd
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nikkiinikkii
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i struggle with this quite often! with comphet, i personally remember that i never really faked my feelings for the opposite sex no matter how small (im a hopeless romantic lol) and with the master doc, as someone who read it over and over again, the doc is quite broad so i think making jokes out of both is a better way when you end up doing a compulsion with both
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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@MelodyMoo I’ve also only been ever to read the doc once. When I found it I balled me eyes out and felt numb and dissociated for days, I even suddenly became ill and had to stay in bed for days after :(
nikkiinikkii
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@MelodyMoo i felt the same way when i read the doc! i read it like almost every day when i found out about it and was a wreck
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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@nikkii I wish I’d never found it! Just feels like so much evidence
Faye JuneFaye June
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I haven’t read the doc, but I understand the concept of compulsory heterosexuality. Of course, there are many instances where women are compulsarily hetero’, but it’s very specific, and usually is something people can identify pretty quickly, even if they have been ignorant of it for a long time. I haven’t got this form of OCD, but I totally empathise with that feeling you get when you read something online that gives you that awful feeling of confirmation, but instead of looking at it as exclusively based, see it as an exposure! Please don’t lose hope, you can get over this theme! I’ve seen a friend do it, and if she can you can too
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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Awh thank you so much! It’s so motivating to hear about other people who have got through it! I think I’ll bring it up to my therapist to work through as an exposure :)
SamanthaSamantha
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I'd say, that even tho it's hard, to read it over and over till it becomes boring. Or do other exposures until u work up to doing that. I know it sux ass but iv been watching lesbians kissing on insta for like 15 min & I actually started to get bored instead of freaking the f out
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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Tbh that sounds like what I should do haha, yeah I’ve been watching those kinda videos too, it’s funny how quickly I’m checking the time to see if I can finish the exposure yet hahah, it does get boring so quick!
SamanthaSamantha
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@MelodyMoo Right its such a good feel when it gets boring! You GOT DIS
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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@Samantha You too!!
CassandragothCassandragoth
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I HATE THAT MASTERDOC. IDK HOW IT HELPS ANYONE. ITS WAY TOO BROAD AND ALMOST SEEMS LIKE THEIR GOAL IS TO CONVINCE STRAIGHT PEOPLE THEY ARENT STRAIGHT. I sent the moderator a message and begged to put a trigger warning literally anywhere but no response.
SerineSerine
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i can promise you they did not want to convince straight people they are gay. the anxiety you feel is ocd
CassandragothCassandragoth
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@Ness I know. That’s just how it comes off.
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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@Cassandragoth Yeah I understand the anxiety you feel! It’s really triggering but I guess it’s helped out a lot of people, and unfortunately because ocd is so misunderstood people don’t know about our kind of themes so don’t know that things like that could be triggering. Maybe we should both work on using it as an erp exposure and see how it goes! :)
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