My OCD attacks everything I’ve ever loved. I was ok with self-doubt about not being good enough or not being likable to people but the moment my OCD started attacking my attachment to my pets and the people I love everything went downhill and I completely feel helpless. I can’t tell my family about it I’ll scare them so much and they’d think I’m going insane .

For real it feels like identity-loss I don’t know what to do anymore. My family and pets where my anchors because I’ve always been an anxious person and they were my escape from reality but now I just feel lost because these thoughts got in the way and are not letting me live peacefully. It moves me to tears everyday

@Anonymous I can relate to this so much. I also have harm ocd, and in typical ocd fashion is latches on to the people and things you love the most. Sometimes I feel like I’ve completely lost myself.

@AlwaysAnxious Right, sometimes my mind tells me that I belong to a mental facility. It’s crazy and it started out of the blue it’s like my mind doesn’t want me to enjoy anything

@Anonymous Yes! Mine started completely out of the blue too, and I find myself wishing I could go back to before I had that thought. Are you able to see an OCD soecialist? It could help.

@AlwaysAnxious I’m only 19, about to live on my own in a few months and I’m not financially independent yet so knowing that the extra expenses for therapy will be a burden to my family and the fact that those thoughts are so disgusting to even admit to them are not helping to solve any of my problems now. I just want to act normal to them knowing the distress I might cause. They’re not familiar with OCD and they’ll probably think I’m going insane..:( therapy seems so far out of reach at the moment for me.

@Anonymous Do they know you have any kind of ocd or anxiety?

@Kls2121 No, every time I tell them I’m anxious about something they are like “don’t be, everything is going to be fine, you’re completely healthy and you can move on”. So I never have even visited a professional to tell me what excactly I’m going through. They’re great people and have helped me multiple times but I can’t talk to them about ocd and these thoughts I feel like they will not understand me and I will stress them too much. I can’t really tell anyone to be honest, in my country no one’s educated about it and I will most certainly be judged and I don’t wanna lose anyone from my life. Sad times, I know

@Anonymous I am so sorry you feel this way. I have told my family all about my anxiety but not my ocd. Im to scared. I have harm ocd and I think they will think I'm just crazy. Even if you don't talk about the ocd maybe just tell them listen my anxiety is not going away and I can't control it anymore and need to get some sort of help. Obviously it seems you have a great relationship with them so telling them you can't do this anymore maybe will have them wanting to help you. You don't need to discuss the ocd with them just get it in their head you need help and it's not going away.

@Kls2121 I’ll see how I will handle this for now but I don’t want to scare them. I really love them they’ve done everything for me and telling them about my thoughts feels like a betrayal to all the love and acceptance they’ve showed me. If I feel like losing control of my anxiety I’ll probably only tell them about that. Thank you I hope you’ll get better and remember there’s this forum where you can talk to people who will understand❤️