I’m really debating to go to a residential ocd treatment facility this summer or buying a car. If I buy a car I won’t be able to go cuz I’d have to keep working to pay for it. Seeing ocd specialist for an hr apparently doesn’t cut it or they aren’t willing to work with me cuz they think I need a higher level of care smh. I guess hearing that and writing it down makes me think to myself should I even continue to work if it’s apparently so bad?? Why am I even working then or am able to work and just now go to Starbucks to get me some ice coffee but apparently my ocd to is to bad to where a therapist thinks I need a higher level of care. Like I get weird thoughts that pop up when I see a girl. I get hocd thoughts when I see a dude. I have an arousal feeling that doesn’t leave me cuz of the weird thoughts that pop up when I see a girl if it wasn’t for that I would be having a happy after. I work with gay dudes and have been on antidepressants while working with gay people no interest at all in them. I don’t see why an outpatient therapist doesn’t want to work with me on this. It blows my mind. Just right before I turned 22 I purposely thought of a dude in a sexual way to to see if I could become gay but I didn’t feel anything so I don’t see why a therapist doesn’t want to help me anymore to live a better life already smfh.

MRK92

Date posted: 4y

Hey buddy sometimes you just need a little extra help and it’s not a big deal. If it’s affecting your day to day life, once you get through it you’ll see it all as better and the right step

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Maybe but I just find if I’m in such a bad mental state that I need to go to a facility why do I wake up and try to live life like normal then? What’s the point of driving to go pick up some coffee, working out, and going to work if an outpatient therapist thinks I need a higher level of care? Shouldn’t the higher level of care be for someone who stays on there bed all day and doesn’t leave there room cuz they are panicking something bad may or may not happen? I’m just confused as to why I need a higher level of care. Like I can go through each scenario of what gets me anxiety or what I’m fearful of happening and what intrusive thought pops up when I’m face to face with people or am in a group setting. Like I know what ocd is and what I still avoid and what my compulsions are. I would’ve just like reassurance that I’ll be back to normal and will eventually be in a relationship with a women even though how depressed it makes me feel cuz of past history of trying smfh. I guess I’m ocd when it comes to a previous therapist not giving me or indicating to me that I’ll be fine and that I just need to face my fears so that I can one day be in a happy relationship with a women and live a happy normal life while pursuing my goals and dreams. I just felt like I never got that message from her and now I’m ocd about it smfh.

MRK92

Date posted: 4y

Yeah man, I’m going through the same, I find it hard to get out of bed, and when I do it I find it hard to enjoy things. It’s because I’m afraid and because I’m in a rut, but I’m gonna keep trying and I hope you do too. If you trust who your seeing follow through, if you don’t, find someone you can. Keep pushing through the maze buddy and we will both get to a happy place

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