nikkii
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NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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Yup. I’ve been in a relapse since last June with very little relief and I am exhausted. Like every day. Physically and mentally drained. There is no joy or let up.
nikkiinikkii
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i’ve had such a relapse today it’s embarrassing. ocd just makes me exhausted im so tired
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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@nikkii I’ve been getting really awful depression/crying spells in the late mornings like almost every day and they make me feel AWFUL and then I think about OCD all day and it’s just bad like I don’t even remember what it feels like to be normal
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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@Ope I’ve also been having just complete panic attacks where I’m convinced the OCD is real, that I’m in denial, and I rock back forth crying “I don’t want to be gay” over and over again. That happened about a week ago.
nikkiinikkii
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@NOCD4me@123 i did the same just today ... it felt so real in the moment, i panicked, and ended up crying in the shower 😋
nikkiinikkii
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@Ope I honestly wait until i stop panicking. doing little stuff like chores i feel like can help calm someone down and hold back from doing compulsions
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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@Ope Oh don’t ask me I’m 23 and I use my mom as my primary method of calming down. I’m a hot hot mess.
nikkiinikkii
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@Ope im 18 😭 but im handling this myself which is kinda tough
nikkiinikkii
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@Ope omg i first noticed the soocd at 17 too! i feel like im lying to myself but i know what i want but it’s blurrered with hocd
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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@nikkii Mine started when I was 12 which is part of the reason it bugs me so much and definitely plays on itself...it SUCKS!
nikkiinikkii
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@Ope i think it also attacks more when you find someone you love
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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@Ope Yeah. I echo everything you’ve said. My core fear is essentially that no man will ever love me. And all I’ve ever wanted is to get married and have kids and a family and HOCD really threatens my desire for that. HOCD makes me feel like someone I’m not. Sometimes I think if I could just get into a relationship with a guy I could move past this OCD but obviously that’s not the case
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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@NOCD4me@123 Honestly it proves nothing. Sometimes being in a relationship makes it worse because of the guilt
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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@Anonymous Yeah that’s what I’ve noticed from others experiences
nikkiinikkii
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i had one too today! we’ll make it through day by day :)
NOCD4me@123NOCD4me@123
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Yeah I hope so. I’m dreaming of better days.
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