Hello everyone! I've been struggling a lot about something, if you could help me it would mean a lot! Thank you!! :) So about 1/2 years ago I was really xcited about starting this sport, figure skating, but then there were no spots left to join in the practices so I ended up not joining. Six months passed and I got the news that there was this one spot for me now! Thing is at that time, I wasn't as much excited but I also rally wanted to! Problem started when I started feeling the need to obsess over figure skating to prove that I really liked it; it's like it would be a crime if I lost interest or wasn't excited to just not go for a practice for one day. It felt like, I needed to like that sport. Deep down, I loved doing that but I never knew my true feelings about it since I'd overthink so much. Then I eventually got through it and it was an amazing relief. These past couples months tho, I met this one boy. He's really cute, and I really like him. But in the start, although I was attracted to him, from the moment on he showed the same interest I kind of wanted him to back off. Guess what happened: the same as with figure skating. It's like I felt the need to like him. Every little thing could be a sign that I liked him more or less. Sometime ago tho I started having feelings for him, but not really the exciting ones when you have a crush, it's more like just a, loving feeling. So since I had nothing to lose, wanted to go for it so much and could actually have answers I went for a relationship with him. It helped a lot tho. I feel really confortable around him, and I don't know how to explain; as I said it's not a outbreath feeling but more of a calm love one. When you love the person but don't feel obsessed over them you know? What's bothering me is, the guilt of losing feelings for him or that non obsessive love meaning that I don't like him that much persues me a bit. I really want to overcome this, really. I just want to be happy with how I actually live and not concerned about my thoughts. Thank you

rootytooty

Date posted: 4y

I have no really original advice but damn do I relate to this. Something someone told me that helped was that we’re not supposed to feel the same way all the time. Sometimes even the things we care about don’t feel good some days, and it’s completely normal. This could be a type of ‘just right’ ocd, where your feelings need to be just right everyday. What happens if you just sit with the feeling or fear as it comes? Do you do any compulsions for this?

Jjss9905

Date posted: 4y

With figure skating I could not just demonstrate I wasn't in the mood, I had to be. With this guy, I'd just feel guilty because my ocd would somehow connect things to say I don't like him that much, and I'd just feel guilty and all... Now that I date it's different tho. I know I want to be with him and sometimes am not really in the mood and all, what still bothers me is that I'm always scared of not liking him enough somehow. It's like there was this boy in the past that I was crazy about and this one I wouldn't say I'm crazy about him, you know?

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