I'm absolutely freaking out. I remembered my friends may have dated at 14 and 16 but one of them may have been 15 at the time I'm not sure. I'm spiraling and I looked it up and a lot of people say it's weird and I was 16 at the time and I'm freaked out if it was my fault if I did nothing since I was a close friend and it was bad and I'm friends with them today. I think also I remembered my friend who was 14 when I was 16 filrted w me once or twice and I remember I think I considered if i liked him or wanted to date him. Though when he did flirt i usually just played it off as a normal compliment and/or responded in a way that indicated I cared abt him closely but only as a friend. I remember one time he was like "all I want for Christmas is you" and I said I think something like. "Aw thanks friendo!" And thought if I just said friendo it would not be romantic. Do not remember this clearly. I hate hate hate this I can't sleep and it's 1 am. What if it was bad and it was my fault and I didn't care and I let my friends do something inappropriate. I remember so little. Were they 17 and 15? I can't recall. And I'm too scared to ask abt it.

I know but like that can still be bad. Like if I saw someone who was like 17 and someone who was like 14 I'd have a red flag immediately even though both were minors. I think there's only a two year difference with them though since they say they r 17 and 19 now. I still worry if it's bad because a lot of people said it was when I looked it up. Or atleast that it was weird. And I feel it's my fault I didn't do anything if it is actually weird.

@Deer Like I dont remember the results well and I'm not looking them up again. A lot of people and I think most said it was weird.

@Deer I understand, and I'm glad you're aware of social differences, but your OCD is really inflating this situation into something it's not. Is there something you can do to ground yourself?

@☔gH0St🌂 Maybe sleep since it's 2 am. Or watch some.videos but I know it may go back to this again.

@Deer If I am spinning out with my OCD at 2AM, normally I'll try to engage in a small but distracting activity for a few minutes before I go to sleep. It puts me in a better headspace and I'm more likely to go to sleep thinking about the activity I just did, rather than my obsessions+intrusive thoughts. I have a several hobbies that I'll turn to, but watching videos is also a good way to clear your mind.

@☔gH0St🌂 Ty. I'm trying to listen to music rn

@Deer Of course, I'm glad I can help. ⭐

I know it can be but if a soph dated someone who was in middle school. Which he could've been since he may have been 14. That may be creepy.

So true. You would be surprised how many kids messed around. We were kids. This is just what your ocd latched onto. Doesn’t make you a bad person