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Have you guys tried any erp with a NOCD specialist here? It significantly has changed my life. This type of ocd is probably the most painful, but that is what it is, ocd. I’m trying to find a YouTube link my therapist showed me the other day that was pretty educational.
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no actually i havent, but i’ll really look into it. mine has been horrible lately so i think it would definitely help starting erp. thank you for ur advice, this theme is so dark and scary it’s terrifying dealing with it alone.
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Makes me sick because I start having false memory with it too
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Just gets so confusing because I can’t stand changing diapers or bathing kids
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it’s truly the worst, i’ve always dreamed of being a mom. now i feel terrified to be one, my ocd tells me i am this horrible monster that should be locked away, so now i feel only guilt all day. i cant wven be happy anymore without my ocd being like “YOURE A P” and then i am like ??? and get depressed. :(
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Yes. I highly recommend getting involved in the therapy if you can. I’ve suffered from the same themes and false memory surrounding it all my life. Having someone teach me how to start small and sit with the uncertainty, and over weeks build to the most painful thoughts, has helped tremendously. It’ll be a lifelong journey, but it’s given me hope and healing. You can live the life you want. This is a very common theme and causes the most distress in my opinion. But I’ve read several stories of moms who have dealt with it, and though terrifying, therapy can help you understand that it truly is ocd, and get you ‘unstuck’ from the loops and lies.
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thank you. it’s hard to have hope with this specific theme because it’s so scary, but i know i need to keep that hope to stay on track and not fall into the trap. :)
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Yes, it took me years to understand that no amount of reassurance helps, and I just tortured myself by staying stuck in that thought, of ‘what if?’. The therapy helps start small by sitting with the pain on your lower levels of distressing thoughts, so you can build up to the ones that feel unspeakable. With erp therapy and medicine management through a psychiatrist, I truly have my life back. Don’t give up, hope!
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thank you! that’s super inspiring, it is true, no amount of reassurance has helped me, just makes me question more and more until i am exhausted. :) thank you.
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Can you speak more to medication? I find my biggest compulsion is rumination and im in NOCD therapy right now and I don’t think I feel entirely better. I’m hoping meds work
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My midwives started me on 25mg, and that through my mind into sad crazy town, and then a psychiatrist took over and throughout the past year I’ve tyrated up to 150mg, which some docs say is where people with ocd feel the most significant change. I’m sure it will be a journey and maybe one day I’ll need to switch things up, but for now, medical management + therapy + some other healthy life changes has been a very healing and positive experience. Scay in the beginning for me personally getting started with meds and therapy, but now I’m so thankful and stoked on life again. It’s an absolute shame how expensive and stigmatizing addressing mental health can be.
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But...of course everyone is different and different meds work for different people. Being evaluated by my doctor and a referral to a psychiatrist were my first steps in starting that journey.
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I been in therapy since I was 7 Now I’m 21 and it been high and low My ocd, I start NOCD this week I’m really excited too because I don’t go anywhere anymore, all i am is home all the time and just having this gulit and imagines and false memories I always feel like I did something horrible and I think about all the time I can never escape it and then all my other obsession are still there too
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i am so sorry :( it’s literally so frustrating, the guilt is the WORST. i feel like i did something horrible too and i am just horrible for having intrusive thoughts so i must be evil or something even though i hate them. it’s so painful...i am wishing the best for you!
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I hope the best for you too
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It’s really nice talking to people
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It’s the gulit and just not understanding
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*disgusted
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I deal with the same problem lately
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i am sorry you’re suffering too :(
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I want to have children so bad and it just makes me so uncomfortable,l
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I get so mad at myself
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Do you have false memories with it or no?
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sometimes, but then i know theyre false so i try and let them go. my brain tells me all kinds of things to make me feel uncomfortable or evil. :(
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I did find for me personally that Zoloft has helped. Been taking it for a year now and starting out was rough. My experience was that it caused even worse anxiety and almost psychosis for the first month😬 but through the help of my psychiatrist and therapist I stuck it out. It took about 6 months to even out. Went through initial feelings of detachment and feeling loopy. But after that I started to gain a grip and feel better, not just surviving but thriving. I’m not sure if I’ll ever get off of it because I realize with the severity of ocd I have and wide array of themes, it may just be something my brain chemistry just needs. The medicine alone helped pull me out of the spiraling despair and fear and anxiety, and the erp through NOCD has taught me tools to retrain my brain and keep becoming braver. I definitely need both:)
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*scary not scay 🤓
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Every day my ocd makes sure there’s a new reason for me to stay trapped in my mind rather than being the mom I want to be that my kids need. Instead i’m stuck in my head depressed and pushing them away. The other day I was braiding my daughter’s hair like I always do and her hair is really long so when I get to the end of the braid I can see her butt in my peripheral vision and I looked down and I immediately got upset asking myself why did I look down?(the ocd has made me question everything I do now). I know it’s just because I was at the end of the braid and I just looked because I was already looking in that direction. A normal person wouldn’t even think twice about it. There was no inappropriate reason behind it at all but of course my ocd latched onto the situation and said I looked down because I wanted to look at her butt. I was so upset and said to myself “I don’t understand how the ocd started an intrusive thought because she was wearing baggy pants. I could understand if she had on tight pants and her butt was more noticeable” and the only reason I said that is because usually the only time my ocd starts intrusive thoughts telling me i’m looking at my daughter in a wrong way is when she has on leggings or a crop top or bathing suit ect. Now my ocd twisted what I said to mean that I like looking at her in tight pants. Nooo! That’s not what I meant but now the ocd won’t stop trying to make me believe that. I don’t ever look at my children in any inappropriate way. I hate this. I hate ocd and I can’t live like this anymore.
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Since I developed ocd as postpartum my ocd has mostly always targeted my kids. It started as harm and then switched to pocd. Both are equally very painful. For years I was mostly able to keep my ocd at bay but when it comes back it’s so bad. I have a son and a daughter and my ocd switches back and forth from kid to kid with horrible intrusive thoughts and now even intrusive ocd dreams. With each thought I get past and start to feel relief another one pops right up. The thoughts feel so real and true even though I know it’s just the ocd and not how I think or feel, the ocd always makes me doubt myself and question everything I think or do. I know other moms/dads go through this too. Please anyone who has or is going through this please tell me how you deal with this. 😪
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I’ve been dealing with a really bad flare up the last 2 weeks and i’ve been dealing with ocd on and off for years. I was finally feeling better today, So of course my ocd decided to bring up an old intrusive thought that was really upsetting and now i’m stuck on it again. The reason why I struggle so much to conquer my ocd is because I developed ocd as postpartum so my ocd targets my kids, the ones that mean everything to me. The intrusive thoughts range from mild to really disturbing. While I know deep down the intrusive thoughts aren’t true or me, the ocd makes it feel SO real and true which makes me feel like I HAVE to disprove the thoughts and with confidence but the ocd won’t let me. It also makes me question analyze and judge everything I do. It’s an endless cycle of pain and I just want to be a mom without ocd telling me i’m a horrible person all day every day. 😪
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