Just did erp and had to stop after 30 mins (suds at a 5). I just can’t bring my anxiety down any lower and I feel like I can’t continue anymore. I’m so so sooo done with this, I’m putting in the work and spending so much money and I’m still in this position :( Maybe I should try meds

I get like this too, I tend to have delayed anxiety after my ERPs and it really catches me by surprise. Maybe try going for a lower one next time and work your way up again. I cant give you any advice on meds because I've never taken them but I'd say it's worth looking into if you feel like that combination would help. Whatever healthy thing you can do to help OCD do it. I dont know exactly what your trigger was but sometimes anxiety is a bit worse some days than others, dont lose hope and be patient with yourself!

I know what you mean, if I do lower ERPs I can feel like I'm failing but I remember something is better than nothing. I understand you want to combat the higher ones whilst you still have a therapist but even so you can always get a therapist again if you ever need to, rushing yourself might not be the most helpful thing to do. It does feel real unfortunately that works into OCDs favours, even though your really anxious remember just because you think something doesn't mean it's true and try to do some calming things that arent complusions of course. OCD is horrible and its uncomfortable when your challenging it but try to think of how much better you will feel in the long run once you've overcome OCD, the anxiety your feeling right now will pass

I completely understand how you feel, I've thought that many times, the feeling of why cant I just not have OCD, it's so debilitating honestly but its possible to overcome, it just takes persistence but it's so important to take care of yourself whilst overcoming it, so if that means taking a step back for a moment then allow yourself to do that and then return again refreshed

How many sessions have you completed to far? The great thing is you will get the tools you need to keep working on it, even after therapy is over.

Have you also been working on your exercises twice a day? I find it really helpful working on it on my own. I started actually ERP with my therapist yesterday and I have done 4 exercise sessions on my own so far and I'm already noticing a slight change in my thoughts and feelings.