guys this is so scary bc like I have all the ocd symptoms but my brain keeps telling me that I'm a p*do in denial and idk what I am anymore I'm just scared :(

Girl I feel so much guilt Everytime I have an image. Especially when it’s about my boyfriends siblings/family, or other youth.. Just remember who you really are. And these are just false thoughts.. the OCD wants us to give in, and while we may feel terrible for the images we have to remember it’s not US.. and we’re not alone.. 🥺 We can get through it.

@PinkOCD thank you so much! it’s such a nasty horrible disorder, steals all the happiness from people :( i hate it, i have so little hope somedays when the immense guilt kicks in, but other times i am like “uh i know who i am” it’s just so frustrating...i am so sorry you suffer too and i believe we can persevere <3

@hope You’re very welcome. :) it really is.. it sucks, I’ll be having a great time with my bfs family and then have an image that’ll cause me to get all quiet and spaced out and then I spiral down within my own intrusive thoughts.. makes me feel like I’m drowning in guilt so I feel that. :( but yeah definitely remembering who we really are helps a lot.. it really is frustrating.. I have ROCD too, sometimes w my bf and my thoughts try to tell me I don’t love him or that we’re not gonna work, when I know we will, u know?.. I hate OCD but it’s a relief knowing it’s not us, and it’s just a disorder, you know?. I’m sorry you do too :( but I’m glad we’re not alone.. I followed you so we can kinda keep in touch and support eachother. :) I have faith in our growth.

@PinkOCD thank you! yeah we’re not alone and it’s just ocd playing tricks on us that’s what matters, i have a feeling if i ever got in a relationship i’d develop ROCD because my ocd attacks everything. i guess for me, pocd is the worst of them all because it’s so dark and scary and evil, my biggest fear is every hurting a child or being a monster like that, my ocd knows that an latches on to it, when i am around kids i am uncomfortable and just want to race home, then when i am home i am obsessing over intrusive thoughts or the “what if’s” and i get so scared i cry so much. :( i have faith in our recovery too! well get through this! F OCD!!

@hope My POCD isn’t bad enough to the point where I avoid being around children but I definitely can relate with my sub OCD, it’s sexually based and whenever I’m around my sister and her bf I honestly purposefully make sure to avoid looking anywhere in the crotch region and sometimes try to avoid looking at him all together because I’ve had OCD sexual themed dreams about him and I know it means nothing but my OCD tries to make more of it, and I’ve only ever noticed myself avoiding something from my OCD when it comes to my sisters bf, because I have a bf and the dreams bring me shame and although her bf is attractive I’m not attraCTED to him. U know?.. just another OCD thought, but I still spend time with them anyways and just try to ignore it and overcome it because we gotta face it to get better u know?..

@hope But yes! F OCD. But girl you gotta face it, I hate being around him sometimes just Bc if my OCD but we gotta remember it’s the OCD and to try and still have a good time :)

@PinkOCD yeah, definitely exposure to the fear is the best way to overcome it. it’s a lot of work to accept we have ocd and itll always be that voice in our heads that question everything and make things uncomfortable, but i believe over time itll fade...i have really weird dreams too and i think it’s because we focus so much on ocd throughout our day without even realizing and we’re always ruminating and in our own heads that when we sleep, our brains go back to what we went through that day and all that’s really there is rumination and the intrusive thoughts, i know my ocd attacks things and people i love. it’s always had, when i was 15 my first intrusive thought was about my dad and i avoided being around him for days. now it’s latched onto other things i love and it’s just this thing i’ve always dealt with, but recently it’s been super distressing and horrible. it’s almost like i am just watching my own brain malfunction and ruin things for me and make my life worse and i don’t have any power over stopping it and it’s the scariest thing. but the power is definitely our intent and action, what we want for others and what our souls say. as long as we don’t lose touch with our intent and actions, i think that’s what’s really important. :)