I am convinced that I’m the worst person on this planet. I envy those people with real event ocd about something they’ve only done once. The case with me is that it became a habit that I didn’t know was actually terrible at the time. I hate this, I don’t deserve anything good in this world. I should’ve known better

I agree with Hope, you know who you are now and you learned. Even if you’ve done something that you know now is wrong, that doesn’t mean that’s you anymore. Trust me, I’ve done things I regret a couple times too and I still get OCD as well. But remember who you are NOW, and who you didn’t continue to be.. you still deserve happiness.

i don’t know what this habit was, but from what it sounds like, you learned and grew. like you said you “didn’t know it was actually terrible” but now that you know, you learned and grew. next step is forgiveness and self compassion. now that you know better, you have grown and that’s a good thing. dont let ocd do this to you, don’t get lost in the horrible cycle it’s waiting for you to get lost in. :(

Who decides what “deserve” means anyway?! 🥰🥰 I have been where you are SO often, it’s not even funny. I PROMISE that you deserve to be happy and at peace. I found treating the self as a friend helps: Assume a friend has the same regrets you do... You still care for them 🥰🥰 You can also reflect on what treatment from others may have led up to you making the decisions you did: Given the same limited information to work with, could other people have made the same mistake you did? Yes 😋 Would you be as hard on them as you are on yourself? Probably not 🐱 It may also be worth exploring who or what influenced you to feel your worth was tied to a few decisions, instead of the whole if your being simply for being. Easier said than done, I know. I still have to work hard to remind myself of these things. Thankfully, I start therapy today 🥳 Take good care of yourself right now. We are here for you 🌷