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I agree with Hope, you know who you are now and you learned. Even if you’ve done something that you know now is wrong, that doesn’t mean that’s you anymore. Trust me, I’ve done things I regret a couple times too and I still get OCD as well. But remember who you are NOW, and who you didn’t continue to be.. you still deserve happiness.
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Thank you both for your kind words, but if you guys found out about what I did... I’m afraid you wouldn’t think so.
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@truya If people found out what I did and saw too people would look at me differently too. Just know that I wouldn’t ever judge you if I knew you. Something you did may have been f**ked, but trust me. I’ve thought, and done some f**ked stuff too and I know it’s not me anymore and it was a phase and lessons... just remember who you are truly, now. Not the past..
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i don’t know what this habit was, but from what it sounds like, you learned and grew. like you said you “didn’t know it was actually terrible” but now that you know, you learned and grew. next step is forgiveness and self compassion. now that you know better, you have grown and that’s a good thing. dont let ocd do this to you, don’t get lost in the horrible cycle it’s waiting for you to get lost in. :(
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Who decides what “deserve” means anyway?! 🥰🥰 I have been where you are SO often, it’s not even funny. I PROMISE that you deserve to be happy and at peace. I found treating the self as a friend helps: Assume a friend has the same regrets you do... You still care for them 🥰🥰 You can also reflect on what treatment from others may have led up to you making the decisions you did: Given the same limited information to work with, could other people have made the same mistake you did? Yes 😋 Would you be as hard on them as you are on yourself? Probably not 🐱 It may also be worth exploring who or what influenced you to feel your worth was tied to a few decisions, instead of the whole if your being simply for being. Easier said than done, I know. I still have to work hard to remind myself of these things. Thankfully, I start therapy today 🥳 Take good care of yourself right now. We are here for you 🌷
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- 22w
17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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- 17w
I genuinely feel like the worlds most horrible person deeply for my past actions in childhood and general mistakes I’ve made. I feel like I shouldn’t be here or there’s no hope for me despite doing right ( trying to do right ) I’ve wanted to open up to my mom about things from my past but when I was talking to her about a situation that happened just to share, she was like “Thank God you’ve never done anything like that” But really my past mistakes are worst. It’s like I feel like I should disappear. I don’t know how to deal with the guilt and I feel horrible. I’ve made good and bad decisions but despite this being a long time ago ( which doesn’t erase my stupid actions ) I still keep bringing back into the present and I’m filled with guilt I genuinely think it would be better if I wasn’t here. I wake up think about my past things and I’m filled with guilt and shame that maybe I am a bad person and voices don’t stop, they keep telling me a lot of things that I start to believe. It makes me upset that I did something like that in my past and I try to be understanding but I can imagine the reactions of people and being condemned so much. I literally do this to myself every single day and it’s exhausting I don’t know how you guys can treat me with so much compassion and understanding. It really doesn’t feel real or like I deserve it. Like even on nocd, it makes me feel worst because I come across comments that say “as long as it’s not —-“ or something and I compare it to my past and I feel like a horrible unacceptable person.
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- 8w
i’ve done so many horrible things and i’m just so scared that i don’t deserve anything good in life
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