Many days ago, I joined an app. The app was full of communities. We usually get a lot of interaction with the almost like-minded people. So, I kind of like being there. (The problem is some of those people are rude, anyways, it is not what I wanted to write here). Main problem: I think that there is something important in other communities, message section, or in any feature of that app. I think that something is important I need to pay attention to. This thought was frequent before. I do not want this thought to come into my mind. Because it keeps on that app and keeps from studying, as that app is very stimulant. It does not let me focus. #OCD with I am missing out on something important Secondly, when I start making a list, my mind says that I need to take care of the old lists too. I mean, I need to do the tasks I wrote earlier on those lists. Moreover, my mind keeps on waiting for "ALL" the tasks to do to be written. To be honest, I have not been able to write all the tasks on to-do list for I guess 4 or 5 months, but my mind keeps on asking for more. It's very hard to recall everything that needs to be done. This halts my process. I really help. #OCD with list making I don't know If I have these OCDs. I have had OCD in the past, and now I am depressed, and maybe that's why my OCD has come back in different forms. My mind also wants to know If I really have OCD. If it is not OCD, I should then not get treated myself with OCD tricks my therapist applied on me. My mind also thinks that would ERP really work? I don't know why I am asking this question from a psychologist, as I had an experience while using ERP to treat religious therapy in the past, and it went well. Sadly, one bad thing happened, I became distant from religion. I have lost connection with God. I think it happened because of using ERP. My therapist asked me not to say sorry to anyone whatever may happen. Then, I followed her. She did remove my limiting beliefs, but then I think my Islamic beliefs also got removed. I am not able to connect with God as I was used to. Furthermore, this situation did not occur when my therapist did these things. It occured when I read about other religions and critical thinking. I think that I need to read all the books to get some or relevant information out of it. I also feel like I cannot complete THAT assignment because I won't be able to write 1200 words. I won't be able to complete it on time. Moreover, I have delayed it so many times, and I have not coordinated my issues to ma'am after once, so it is possible that my ma'am won't accept my assignment, therefore, my mind thinks that why to make an assignment when she won't even accept it? Why to make an assigment when she will give less marks even if she accepted? Well, I am a high scorer, and I need to work and I feel the need to get full marks in anything I do. I am really tired. There are so many books to read, and I am not able to decide which one I should read first. Some 90 days, my cell phone got snatched, and also some 15 days ago, my cell phone got stuck, and all the data had to be erased, so I am very much converned about data loss even before writing anything. When I read from a book, even if I highlight it, I worry that I won't be able to find it faster as I find something from a pdf, and it stops me from reading from a book. It is very bad for me. I think that I might tell someone something wrong, so I do not tell them, and my fellows are very demanding. They say I need to help them out all the time. They even complained to one of my professors that I do not help them out. Illogically, my professor also put her burden on me while saying I should help my class mates. I have told her that their behaviour with me is very wrong. They criticize me. Still, she kept on insisting that I should help my fellows (instead of her, as it is her work, and the classmates were also asking for help from her in the first place).