When I'm doing pretty good (good compared to how it's been at least) and I see a lot of positive changes in my anxiety, the way I react to intrusive thoughts etc., it gets so easy to become discouraged when I let either things like loss of attraction (which result in too much checking with females or over analyzing their looks 🤦‍♂️) or if I fall for into compulsions like ruminating, checking or self reassurance. Like i said, I'm feeling overall better but anytime these things happen it's easy to fear the worst but I'm still telling OCD "ok, yeah sure. Hit me harder. You never know." Its all I can do....

I also feel like the darker more taboo side of compulsions isn’t talked about enough because ocd can cause you to actually have intercourse with men, not that I have, but men and women have just to see if they liked it, and they just end up more confused, this disorder leads to so many awful things that you would never have imagined yourself doing before the ocd, lol that’s my advice tho, sorry if it’s a little long and boring to read this, I hope you can also use this as an exposure, stay well and remember uncertainty and acceptance are key to digging yourself up out of this hole you’ve built for yourself, love ya, if your a guy then no homo 😂😂😂 but also all the homo lol

I’m so proud of you, I used to use masturbation as a compulsion and it got to the point where I would have stress orgasms to the thoughts and I thought that that meant I was in denial, I’m so close to being done with this subtype of ocd, I feel almost like my old self again, and I also finally met the girl of my dreams who loves me, I guess she’s the only reason I’m recovering lol, because I tell myself idc if I’m attracted to men as long as I like her I’m fine ya know, and the thoughts and anxiety have decreased, I feel free but at the same time I expect to have more bad days of it, but the uncertainty is something that gets easier to tolerate over time man trust me

I just hate how this ocd caused me to fail school, on my worst days I wasn’t thirsty,hungry, or even sane, I would ruminate endlessly and almost wanted to end it all but thank God it didn’t get to that point, now I just embrace the uncertainty and can live with it, as long as I love my girl I’m ok, also on a further note, I’ve never really had intrusive romantic thoughts about men, it’s just 95 percent sexual thoughts lol

Someone once told me the crazy thing about being an over thinker is that we are usually right,,,, Using this theory how do we know we are not right about our thoughts and they are gut feelings