- Username
- ocdomi
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I know it’s hard to tell a loved one but it’s so helpful to have their support. I’m a lot older than you and married. I was so scared to tell my husband about my so-ocd issues but he was more supportive than I ever could have hoped. It helped me to know he was there for me on my hard days & that we would get through it together.
thank you so mych for replying. it really helped<3
Hi dear, I just want to say I know what you’re feeling because I’ve dealt with both these OCD themes and others as well. For me it started when I was 12, and came back earlier this year ( I am 22 now). You are young and I know how scary it feels to be dealing and going through what you are dealing with. You are not alone and believe me when I say it does get better, you CAN overcome and beat OCD. You CAN rewire and train your brain to treat these thoughts as just thoughts rather than truths. This app is a great resource, but here are some others: Ali Greymond on YouTube she is amazing. I’ve been following her and implementing her tips and I swear for me they’ve worked wonders. Another great resource: Mark Freeman on YouTube. Hopefully you can connect with a therapist soon and maybe if you’re comfortable letting your parents know that you need some support right now mentally, or just letting them know you need a therapist. I’m living proof that you can overcome this, that there are good days ahead and that with hard work and patience it is possible. The best revenge you can get on OCD is living the life you’ve always imagined. You can do it dear, you have a whole future waiting for you and remember never give up 💗
thank you so much. you have absolutely no idea how mych this means to me considering how scared i am for the future
Ayy look, I don’t like saying my age online, but just this once, I’ll make an exception: I’m your age. And when I first started up with the REALLY BAD ocd issues, I felt the same way about telling my parents, as they are similar in nature to yours. My first REAL onset was with harm ocd, then after I got baptized, the religious stuff started. And it’s similar to yours but not quite, I’m worried to death I’m going to willingly go there or already have. But what religion are you, Christian, Catholic, etc, if you don’t mind sharing? I’ve always had little tiny fears or ocd points like I used to have all these gay intrusive thoughts and the like but that’s calmed down for me a bit; now it’s mostly the religious stuff. But anyway, I have no lovin idea what I would have done if I hadn’t told my parents about my issues, and they just tried to help me. So that would be my advice to you, that and schedule with a therapist with your religion, if you can.
hi thank you so much for replying!! i, my self have been catholic my entire life. you actually really motivated me to talk to my mom when she is available so tysm for that:)
@domilols Yw! Any time!
I struggle with the same thing and I’ve been in a committed relationship with my boyfriend for 2 years. Know your values. know your self. Know that this is just you DOUBTING yourself. Focus on what makes you smile and your heart beat. I finally opened up to my parents , it’s scary but it’s okay. They won’t be disappointed. What’s there to be disappointed in? You got this I promise . Xo
I feel you, you're straight, you've always been straight, you'll always be straight. I'm a male teen and i also developed HOCD over the quarantine and it terrified me. I was straight my whole life and i've been in 3 relationships with women, but when hocd hit, i didnt know if i still loved the person i was with, i didnt know if i loved her because part of hocd is loss of attraction to the opposite sex. What i usually do is as myself "What would the old me (the old version of me without hocd) would do?". And i identify these fears or what ifs as thoughts, always identify it and ask yourself what would the old you (the old you without hocd) would do? I told my parents about it and they now help me, granted not all parents would be the same but if you explain to them clearly that you've only been fearing it then you'll be okay. Remember that you're straight and that you've always been
Ok... I was doing good until a few weeks ago. I really was making a lot of progress until a few weeks ago. Backdoor spikes turned up and ocd came back with full force. Or at least I think it's ocd... I hope it is. My theme is hocd, by the way. I try to not give the thoughts much attention, but they're making me mad. It feels so real, and when I see coming out stories it just adds up, as if I should come out too. It terrifies me, every day I think about wanting to die, to not wake up, to cease existing. It's been so draining, and so lonely. I don't want to be in the closet, I don't want to have romantic relationships with women. And ocd makes me question why that: because of my morals? What if your sexuality goes deeper than your morals and you're just denying you like women? Maybe you should try it out, you'd like it. This scares me so. much. And the thing is: I watch same sex porn. It turns me on. I've seen on the internet many women actually watch same sex porn, but ocd makes me question if my case isn't different from other women. All the time I'm worried that I'll just lose control and kiss any woman that's by my side. I haven't had any experience with men either, as I'm reserved and a hopeless romantic (high expectations). I've liked men before, though, and I still have many crushes today. Ocd tries to convince me this is just a cover up. This is just destroying my life. This is daily torture, I can't imagine myself living with this forever. What am I supposed to tell my eventual boyfriend, my husband? How am I supposed to have children in this state of mind? What if some day I just snap out of this and actually realize I'm gay? What if this question is actually me already admitting that I am in fact gay? Honestly, it's too much. This was quite hard to write, and I tried to include here as much as possible of my insecurities. If you read till here I'm grateful. Just wanted to say that I DON'T have anything against gay people, even though they're making me very anxious since this all started, which adds up to my endless collection of intrusive thoughts (it makes me think I'm in denial because of some prejudice).
I’m new to this app and just wanted to share my story. As a young girl I definitely had compulsions. My mom always told me she would take me to a psychiatrist (I would cry when people sat on my bed). Anyways, as I got older I definitely grew out of a lot of things. I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD but I have GAD. I know I definitely have OCD because I have done a lot of research. Recently I have really, really been struggling with HOCD. I’ve never experienced this before, and that’s why it’s making it more scary. I’m a young adult woman and have been in a very serious relationship with a male for many years. I love him so much. I am also very athletic and not very girly. I always loved the fact that I was a guys gal, but lately it has made me super insecure. A lot of people at school assume I’m bisexual because I’m super pro LGBTQ rights and idk? Idk why I give off that “vibe”. It never bothered me, I always thought it was funny, and I have no issue with being gay, but I’m definitely not?! During this quarantine my guy friends have said I have way way more guy friends than girl friends, someone asked my teammate if I was bisexual, and I have never had an orgasm from my boyfriend. It started really getting in my head and I keep being like “am I gay and that’s why I don’t orgasm”. This seems so pathetic and writing this actually helps and makes me realize there is no way I like women. But anyways THE THOUGHTS DO NOT STOP. I keep worrying that I do not know myself, and maybe I don’t love my bf, and maybe other people see something I don’t. Anyways, how can I help myself? I am noticing I’m reassuring and checking and starting compulsions
hey yall!! i’m new to this app and it’s so comforting to see many others share similar experiences that i’ve went through to start this off, my ocd rooted from religion when i was around 9 years old. i have a huge family, mostly catholic, so growing up i believed in god due to my surroundings (they were never forceful w religion). it began with intrusive thoughts like “do ___ or you’ll go to hell” or intrusive thoughts that would make me do things or else i’d be disrespecting god which, as a child, terrified me. then it went on to my extreme fear of germs. i would wash my hands constantly and use hand sanitizer every second to a point where my hands were cracked and bleeding. i had to see a dermatologist in order for the skin on my hands to go back to normal. growing up my intrusive thoughts became extremely overwhelming (especially as a teenager), having to do with sexuality, not knowing if what i remembered was real or if my mind was making it up, relationship ocd, thoughts ab me/ a loved one being harmed, ocd about sexual things, etc etc. i always felt so gross bc of these things as i had thought that i was the only one who experienced this. i’m so glad i’ve found a community where so many of us can relate to these things, as i feel so comfortable and not alone. i’m currently still a teenager and have managed to handle my intrusive thoughts a little better, but i do have an extreme amount of anxiety as well, a lot of it surrounding those intrusive thoughts. i can’t really get therapy due to personal reasons but i’m grateful i can vent in a safe space:) i feel so welcomed on this app, i hope all of you are well <3
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