someone please help what i often do is try and imagine scenarios with the same sex to see if i like it, but lately i have had a thought: what if these are fantasies and not compuslions?!?!?! i am scared these are fantasies that i like especially because i have been getting groinal responses and haven't felt disgusted by them (bit of background: when my hocd first started i used to feel so nauseous every time i thought about it and never had groinal responses but now i don't feel anxiety nor disgust and i am getting groinal responses) does it mean i am gay????

i know what groinal responses are but i never had them before i just had the anxiety and disgust why now start having them? plus there's a lack of anxiety and i have been thinking like what if they aren't compulsions and it's driving me crazy

but accepting the uncertainty means i am accepting that i am gay and i am not

@Nour04 A thought is just a thought don't give it feelings ,when you have that thought, can you try to say maybe l am or maybe lm not,mocking back at your ocd

@Anonymous it's hard but i'm definitely trying to get there

i don't want to accept it

@Nour04 That is one of the reasons why these thoughts keep appearing. You don't want to accept it which makes you have more anxiety over them. I didn't want to accept these thoughts either, however once you slowly accept it, they'll start fading. Recovery process is hard but I know you can do it. You have to not let the thoughts bother you anymore

that's literally my subtype and it scares me

@Nour04 Just remember these thoughts don’t dictate reality and are just imaginations in the brain, so just assume that the things you are worrying about aren’t happening as they most likely aren’t

@Jack i have this fear of me losing control and acting on tthm too

do you honestly think it's ocd?