- Username
- BrenB
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m just scared all never find happiness again. Every time I i start feeling better or try to find love in something my OCD won’t let me
It’s another trap and another fear. What if I never find happiness? What if questions are the OCD. I see it as trying to steal three things. My joy, my peace, my purpose. When I find joy in something I feel it shouting doubt or fear about that thing. Sometimes I have to see it as that bully and tell it to shut up and switch my mind to something I enjoy. It is helping to see it for what it is. It’s the OCD not me and I won’t let it win and steal my joy. When I feel discouraged and helpless I find I’m saying what if questions like what if I’m helpless and this overtakes me and I can’t handle it and and and... Is this happening right now? It’s another what if question by the bully. When I am able to properly distract myself I notice I feel so good and the bully doesn’t actually have the power it’s telling me it does. Don’t know if this is helpful.
Concentrate on the facts.
I have the same fears especially the fear of suicide. And the same questions go through my head all the time. I always fear as well "what if I never find happiness or I'm not as happy as u could be" which as Anjuli says is another OCD trap
I’ve had these similar fears. It has helped me lately seeing my OCD as a bully. It’s not me, it’s the bully trying to pull me in and use every trap possible to get me to ruminate and obsess. It lies. Even the idea that I’m stuck in this and I can’t handle it. Another lie. It’s trying to find whatever is the strongest fear to pull me in. Just think about what your biggest loves or priorities are and it is preying on those. For me it’s my kids, my faith, my life, and my sanity. All have been attacked by my OCD bully. It is telling you the opposite of who you are. If mental clarity is something you find very important it will shout what if questions about mental illness. It’s just finding that one thing that you can’t resist that what if questions to.
Does anyone suffer from Schiz OCD. Where you obsess about possibly being schizo
Is there anything such as suicidal OCD? This sucks because I’ve also developed bad depression ? I’m scared that I’m gonna lose control!
Does anyone here have harm OCD that tries to attack every single action and thought they do during the day? Mine is about killing my spouse. Now every time I hear something that entails the future or “doing what I gotta do” I am afraid if the thoughts showing up. And as I try to think “do therapy”, “find hobbies”, “get into yoga” the intrusive though appears and it’s “kill your wife” or “kill your wife and yourself afterwards”. It could attack a happy event to. Like you finally get that reimbursement you were waiting for on an online shopping return. And now you get it and you’re like : “Nice, thats done” and the the intrusive thought comes “cool, now you can kill your wife”. I’m under the impression I am becoming schizophrenic. I don’t hear a voice or see things though, and some days there are less occurrences than other days. It’s days where I don’t work and have a day out with the wife doing fun activities that the occurrences are less. But if I sit alone working in my office all they they appear all the time. This is very distressing and causes severe anxiety. Loosing appetite, head aches, becoming extremely irritable. This is the hardest thing I have ever go through.
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