Help! TOCD!!! Has anyone got TOCD on here? I have a few times obsessed about this theme but HOCD usually takes over. But today was the first day for a huge obsession of TOCD, I am so worried I FEEL manly, like I really feel manly, I don’t feel feminine a lot of the time and this really scares me. I am so confused and I read some Reddits for people becoming transgender and I really feel that’s how I feel but I really don’t want to be a man, I just want to feel womanly. This is so scary 😭. I’m not sure how much longer I can take of this OCD, today was the first time that I thought I’m not sure I can live a life like this. I don’t know who I am anymore. Sorry to be so negative! Hope everyone is doing okay out there ❤️

Hey thank you so much for replying! I really appreciate it, it’s so nice to know I’m not alone with this but I’m also so sad that other people struggle with this! Look after yourself!

@Smile941 i try as much as i can to get back to doing stuff i used to enjoy i have been emotionally and mentally "paralysed" as i had hit an all time low. i know how hard it can be to enjoy stuff you usually like and it may even feel like a burden or a "homework". try as much as you can to keep up old activities, or if you feel good enough on a given day, try picking something new!! some of the most relaxing stuff in my opinion are: going on walks in nature, maybe colouring, reading books, cooking/baking or if you want try watching movies/series(i personally avoid them because they trigger me a lot on my bad days)

@Nour04 Good advice. Dancing also helps a lot it's like saying to ocd's face "fk off I'm happy and you can't do anything about it".

@Nour04 Oh gosh that’s awful, I totally understand. I really do try to do these things but nothing seems to make me happy these days! And yes I’m the same with movies too. Thank you so much for your advice

@Rogan Love that!

@Rogan omg how did i forget about that one?? just yesterday i was dancing alone in my room and then today i was able to wake up early and felt energised ans haven't had much thoughts up until now. thank you for adding this!!

@Smile941 i know how debilitating it could be. actually if you think about mental illness in general it's pretty ironic, it paralyses you until you're not able to care for yourself anymore, but the best way out is caring for yourself! ironic and funny if you ask me (don't take this the wrong way humour is one of my coping mechanisms)

@Nour04 Haha yeah I totally understand! I just had a scary thought, I’m female but I remember I used to say when I had loads of make up on that I looked like a drag queen, because I always thought I looked manly. Now I’m panicking

@Smile941 try meditation or breathing slowly or even mindfulness when the thoughts occur. try as much as you can not to guve in to compulsions, you've got this!

@Nour04 Thankyou!!

@Nour04 Activities keep ocd at bay. 100% effective

@Anonymous I had that too, also because i used to cut my hair short because i thought it was cool/rebellious. But then was afraid i looked like a guy. So i feel you. And my OCD keeps making false memories too. It makes me feel like i’m in denial.