- Username
- hi,itme
- Date posted
- 3y ago
omggggg i saw this reel too!!!! just 2 days ago and i cried my eyeballs out for an hour!! and then i started getting scared because "what if i cried because i felt called out which means i am in denial" this literally happened 2 days and i was FREAKING out, and it's the same reel!! i had questioned myself before hocd because it was all over tiktok, and i even took tests, and after my ocd(i hope it's hocd and not denial)i started taking more tests for reassurance, and this reel sent me off the edge. i had been doing better but then i saw that video and cried for a whole hour then had a terrible headache for the rest of the day.
plus i have a gay friend who knows about my ocd, and he knows A LOT of people who have questioned themselves, even thought they were bisexual but then found out they were straight. questioning is a normal part of development, everyone does at some point. does it necessarily mean they're gay? no i don't think so but honestly that reel was so damaging, and hell it was yesterday not even 2 days ago sorry for the mistake, but i crumbled literally started sobbing for a full hour until i couldn't take it because i don't want to be gay
Wow I’m glad to hear that reel wasn’t just super triggering for me! I think questioning means questioning and it doesn’t have to mean anything but that. That stupid reel sent me “reeling” though, pun intended. Ughhhh
@hi,itme lmao great pun!! but yeah it sent me SPIRALLING too it was super triggering and i kept crying and had a terrible headache though i had been doing good for about 2 weeks before that happened. and yeah me too as soon as i saw your post i was like omggg nooo not someone else seeing that because it was super triggering and super harmful i knew i had to reply to yours because it happened to me too
@Nour04 Ugh I’m sorry we both were so triggered by that. What helped u get through it if I may ask?
@hi,itme i talked to a friend which helped me wind down, i came on here but got really harsh comments which made stuff worse, i was just super numb but my mom made me go out with her but i don't know if that really helped or made stuff worse.
The q in lgbtq means queer but I’ve seen in some places where it stands for both queer and questioning. So I mean, it seems unlikely but maybe that was their point?
I went through that for many years when I was married I would question myself you know I come from our history family of OCD so I didn’t know why I would question myself all the time until now that I am turning 40 and finally finding the correct doctors and analyzing I’m divorced now and I’m better off like that because I need to fix myself emotionally mentally because of childhood trauma and sexual abuse also contributes to sometimes I’m questioning OCD of your sexual preference but you will be off all right don’t question yourself as much just let the day go try not to so much question yourself Just breathe in and breathe out and except what you feel and just let it go try to here affirmations of LGBT try to hear things that are positive it’s very hard when you get caught up in that cycle of repetitive thoughts but we are all here to help each other and I’m very appreciate of of this app you can always message me whenever you want to speak I’m very very familiar with this OCD pattern
Thanks for your comment. What do u mean by “here affirmations of LGBT”? Is that implying that I/you are part of that group? Or did you mean something else?
You’re seeking reassurance. But sure I’m sure lots of people question forever
But 25 isn’t forever just FYI
I’m so sorry
how do i know it's ocd and not denial this has been driving me crazy
Ok first thing first what are u attracted to?
are you replying to me? if so i have always been attracted to guys but idk anymore
@Nour04 Yes
@gwen81 I’m no therapist but if it’s a deeper issue u should seek therapy
That’s it if ur attracted to guys that’s what like. I know it’s hard with ocd. It’s ok to be gay it’s doesn’t matter what people it’s what makes u happy love
it doesn't really work like that
@Nour04 🙏
Is it normal for even straight people to question their sexuality at times? Before HOCD I was like I’m probably bi or whatever based on NOO CONCRETE EVIDENCE bc in real life I was only attracted to men and am in a stable relationship with a boy...but I got these random thoughts and they didn’t bother me as much that’s until HOCD hit :( and now I’m like NO IM STRAIGHT STOP ?
This is ridiculous, now I feel like I’m truly questioning my sexuality. I’m 15. Never had a crush on a girl, don’t think I have. Touched myself to lesbian porn mostly, turned on by sexual images of women but still I never questioned what I felt for boys. I knew I would crush on them, I knew they were feelings. If anything maybe I could be bisexual. But still that doesn’t seem right. I’m just completely lost. Maybe I’m just thinking to much. It shouldn’t be this hard right? I read bisexual people immediately knew. Most of them I think, they realized all their crushes and Fantasies they wanted in real life. I never fantasized about a women, or any girl. I remember crushing on a senior once, I felt excited to see him at school. And fantasized about him. And with my Boyfriend he was just so innocent, and cute and sweet, and when we do sexual stuff I like it. I get uhm .. wet. Sorryyy. I recently got advice to look out for any girl crushes. And I’m really scared about that now. Maybe I can crush on a girl and maybe I can’t. I don’t know anymore. I feel completely unsure of everything. Im not sure if I’m straight or not. I recently started to take quizzes again. I either got straight or bisexual. And idk can anyone give advice? Thanks for reading through all of this if you did.
Feels like I’m gonna have this for as long as I’m dating my boyfriend…. Feels like I wouldn’t have this problem if we broke up and I would be “free”. It just is hard because I’ve had these thoughts everyday for the duration of our relationship and even some months before that. So I’m not sure how our relationship is supposed to feel tbh. The thing that scares me is I feel like I’ve never been fully aware of my sexuality. I mean in high school I used to be sure I think? But in college something changed with me and I felt unsure then. Now I just feel like I don’t even know. Anyone else has been struggling with this since they got with their boyfriend ?? Or has everyone been super sure of their sexuality beforehand and then these thoughts came?
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond