caseyf28
- Date posted
- 4y
Justin EJustin E
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes it can be very stressful. I do my best to let these thoughts float by.
Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 4y
I totally understand this and struggle myself. I have a wonderful husband who loves me so much, he’s never done anything wrong at all and yet my brain is constantly checking for danger, “ what if he’s cheated in some way” “ what if he ever does cheat”. I also know that reassurance doesn’t help and yet I constantly need it. Would love to hear from someone who’s managed to over come this type of ocd theme.
zoedzoed
- Date posted
- 4y
Omg this is exactly me! What can we do to protect ourselves and stop feeling this way? It is a constant torture to live with these thoughts. Our everyday life seems so difficult. From the moment i wake up these thoughts come back and feel so horrible. Will we ever be alright and overcome this horrible ocd???
Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes it’s there every single day. Some times worse than others. I’ll work my way through one thought and it’ll then be replaced with another. I don’t understand what my core fear is. He’s never done ANYTHING wrong! It’s totally irrational for me to have these thoughts. Do you seek reassurance from your partner? I try to do it less and less but I still have the thoughts and sometimes I just have to give in.
Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes that’s exactly it, asking for details, analysing etc. At the beginning of this journey he answered my questions and reassured me all the time. Then we both started to see that no amount of reassurance was enough, it didn’t work. The more I’ve learned about ocd I’ve shared it all with him so he does understand but there are times where it causes arguments because ocd can be very selfish and relentless and especially when it’s not getting the reassurance it craves. I try not to give in to that urge and he’s good at pointing out what’s happening when I do. The thing is the thoughts come anyway even if I don’t ask for reassurance. It’s so tiring I’d swap it for any other theme.
zoedzoed
- Date posted
- 4y
Sometimes i feel so guilty and embarrassed that i ask him to answer questions and push him to tell me things. I think it's very difficult for him no matter how hard he tries to understand. I have analyzed him what ocd makes me think and do. Sometimes he understands fully but other times he feels tired and gets furious listening to my insane thoughts and assumptions. There should be an informative guide for partners of people with ocd because they also need support and information in order to stay healthy and help their loved ones.
zoedzoed
- Date posted
- 4y
I suffer from the same problem and it is totally devastating. I have awful thoughts and doubts all the time and I feel so bad and depressed. It's like my mind wants or needs to have these thoughts in order to feel ok. It seems like I have a trouble making mind that wants to feel anxious and worried all day long. You are not alone in this
zoedzoed
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes i seek reassurance many times. I ask him over and over questions about details trying to analyse facts. It's like my mind wants me to believe he is doing bad things against me even though i don't have a clue. How does your partner react to your issue with ocd? I think it's really difficult for them to understand how big our problem is.
Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes that’s right, there should be. Have you had any therapy at all?
zoedzoed
- Date posted
- 4y
I started sessions with a psychiatrist but her help and advice felt general and not gone too deep to find my roots that cause ocd. I think that a psychiatrist should ask detailed questions and help each client in a personal way. Did you get any therapy?
Angel20Angel20
- Date posted
- 4y
I had a course of CBT which helped me understand what’s going on with the ocd etc but I think the gold standard treatment is ERP which here in the UK doesn’t seem to be used as much.
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