please help i literally can't do this there's so many proofs from my childhood of me being gay, and whenever i try not ruminating over the thoughts it feels like i am ignoring them and not bringing them up and being selective which means i am in denial. and to add to all of that there's not that much anxiety caused by the thoughts which concerns me even more. this really feels like denial and i feel miserable, added the fact that i fit and know so many gay stereotypes it must mean something. i really feel desperate and in denial y'all i can't accept it. i can't say well yeah maybe i am bi maybe not because it feels like accepting i am bi/lesbian.

thank you so much i needed this a lot. you're so sweet thank you for taking the time to reply i feel less alone tbh <3 what about you how are you doing? hope you're okay!

@Nour04 I think ocd can be really isolating sometimes so im glad i could help a little :) Im okay, todays been better than the last couple of days but i read something triggering so trying to process that and not ruminate too much! Actually trying to distract myself by studying at the moment :)

@Winter literally studying has turned into an escape but i personally can't even do that properly when i am triggered because i want to ruminate and analyse the thoughts but i don't want to either

@Nour04 Yeah i get that, it depends on the day for me. Sometimes its a good distraction and sometimes the thoughts dont allow me to concentrate. What are you studying for if you dont mind me asking? :)

@Winter ohh just my finals exams nothing more or important lol. what about you?

@Nour04 Thats still important haha! Just revision before starting uni in September so even less important 😂

@Winter awhhh omg good luck!!! tbh uni terrifies me lol i am still enjoying my last year at school(i'll graduate next year)

@Nour04 Honestly im terrified of going haha (also ocd is making me worried that im gonna “realise im in denial” at uni so thats not helping!) just trying to sit with the uncertainty but i think its gonna build up before i go. Im moving to another country too so its all kinda stressful 😂 Aw nice! good luck with your last year! Where are you from btw? Im from the UK :)

@Winter oww i'm from Lebanon, and yeah i understand. i can barelt prepare mentally before going out to the supermarket, so i can't imagine what you're going through. hope you're fine you've got this!!

@Nour04 Oh wow! Thanks, think itll be okay when i get there its just scary beforehand! Hope youre doing well too! :)

@Winter thank you so much <3

@Winter hi, sorry i know i am replying very late to this post but i really relate to this comment, i am so terrified of uni and suddenly realising that im in denial i am actually thinking about talking a gap year. i was just wondering how you were and how it was going for you? and if you had any advice that would be really appreciated ;)