has anyone ever had hocd and turned out to be gay? i feel in denial, i feel like i am one of those few who come out as gay at the end of hocd, and i fear i am not letting myself be attracted to girls because i am in denial and living a lie has anyone ever gotten to this extreme??

clomai

Date posted: 4y

Yep. I feel broken.

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

i am so sorry you're going through this. though now we both know we're not alone , it still feels debiliating and wrecking if you need anything you can vent here❤

clomai

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 I just don’t understand what is happening genuinely feel like I’ve lost my mind. My mind takes everything and makes it extreme

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

@clomai i totally understand. i too don't know who i am anymore. it's so draining

clomai

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 I can relate to that, my self esteem is at an all time low too.

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

@clomai i am so sorry you're going through this. it's tough i understand. are you seeing a therapist?

clomai

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 I’m starting on the 28th! I have bipolar disorder too, so for me it’s been a challenge finding someone who knows how to deal with me hahaha. I have a psychiatrist but not a therapist 😊

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

@clomai oww i am glad you'll be going to therapy. can't imagine how tough it is for you. hopefully you'll get better!!

clomai

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 Yes I can’t take antidepressants as that makes bipolar worse so I have to try other things haha. I hope you get better too. I’m sure we will, everything is temporary. I read earlier that scientists believe schizophrenia is a whole body disorder rather than just a disorder of the mind. So make sure you take care of yourself!

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

@clomai thank you so much! and if you ever need anything i am here for you

hate_ocd.123

Date posted: 4y

Yup and im doing terrible. I am constantly depressed and cry a lot. Isolated myself and cut off all my friends. Deleted social medias. Stopped writing (my passion). Hit myself in the head constantly to the point my head has lumps and bruises as well as my hand (I hate doing it but nothing helps). Barely am getting by in school. Starting intensive therapy for two months (covered & free) so I have time to save up before getting an OCD specialist in August to do ERP. Becoming suicidal again. Angry all the time. Anything I found enjoyment in irritates me. Feel like punching something every minute. And nothing fucking helps and i hate it. So just yeah im mental by this point. Officially driven crazy by ocd.

clomai

Date posted: 4y

I deleted social media too.

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

heyy i am so sorry, this seems super serious, worse than what i'm going through. makes me wonder if what i am going through is even ocd lmao anyway, if you need to talk i am here. i could also offer you my snap if you need additional support. the only this that has been keeping me sane is that i have finals so i have to study and go to school, which is a good distraction. i totally understand what you're going through and it's horrible. again, i am so sorry. if you need me i am here, please reach out. you matter and are loved

Hocd_sufferer

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 Hello

Hocd_sufferer

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 Is you used reddit

Hocd_sufferer

Date posted: 4y

@Nour04 We can talk

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

@Hocd_sufferer no sorry i do not use reddit

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