Is it normal to become emotional during your sessions? I have my first session tomorrow and I'm worried I'll be crying the entire time.

Hello. I’m new. I’m going to therapy tomorrow and we’re gonna start CBT soon. I’m really scared and I don’t want to open up cause I don’t want to say all of it. I’m a bad person

Started therapy. Today was my second session and it really made me more anxious than I have been in a while. Anyone else felt more anxiety/depressed after a therapy session?

Hi there. This post may be a little lengthy so apologies in advance! I’m relatively new to NOCD. I’m currently on my 3rd week of counseling for ROCD. I’ve been dealing with ROCD on and off since the summer of 2020. My initial dealings with ROCD in 2020 left me bed-ridden for weeks, not wanting to eat or drink anything - just wanting to sleep it all away. It got to the point where I couldn’t decipher if what I was thinking were my true thoughts or my anxiety. From the moment I woke up until the moment I fell asleep. I was truly a prisoner of my own mind. It was such a painful and heartbreaking experience not only for myself, but for my fiancé and mother to witness as we didn’t know anything of ROCD then. It got to the point where for the first time in my life I voiced aloud wanting to die - just so I could shut my brain off and have peace. Since then I’ve been placed on medication and have been in and out of therapy. Until finding NOCD, I always felt therapists in my town (a small, southern part of the US) just didn’t quite understand what I was dealing with. I’m happy to be here on NOCD and giving ERP a try. It’s definitely different from any other therapy I’ve received in the past… but sometimes the sessions can be triggering. I’m currently dealing with a “flare up” right now. I constantly feel as if I have one foot out the door in my relationship. I constantly think of people from my past. Two in particular. I chalk it up to never having closure (maybe?)… but then I’ll have intrusive thoughts. Playing out scenarios in my mind, making myself anxious and doubting my current relationship - knowing that the odds of these scenarios actually happening in real life are practically non-existent. I’m triggered by topics of marriage, couples that we’re friends with being on the outs, etc. It’s so painful to deal with. I say ALL of this to say, other than meeting with my NOCD therapist, I’ve considered doing the group ROCD therapy that meets every Wednesday via the app… but I’m really anxious about it. All because of this belief that if I speak what I’m going through into existence, then it’s true. I’ve also never shared my story face to face with people in a public setting like that before. I tend to be pretty private. I’m able to post this because for those who see it, you don’t know who I am and you cannot see me and vice versa. So, if anyone’s ever sat in on a group NOCD therapy session - would you be so kind as to give your girl some relief or tips to approaching it for the first time? I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you!