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- 4y
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- 4y
Hi yes I was literally just thinking this exact thing today. Like sometimes you are so exhausted or numb to all the stuff going on in life in addition to the OCD that you can’t even bring yourself to cry or feel anything yk?? I try to cry but it feels so artificial even though I know under normal circumstances I would cry. These days it takes like SO much for me to cry idk. But anyways sorry for ranting but I also relate to feeling easily irritable. Like even the slightest things make me have the urge to yell or scream at things or people. and I really don’t want to do that bc I don’t want to hurt anyone emotionally. I also had to the urge to take the cup my mom was sipping out of and put it back in the cup holder bc she was slurping it a lot and it was just super triggering for some reason. like I can’t handle some noises and stuff sometimes. to get out of it, I try to drink a lot of water bc idk I get this refreshed feeling and such. Since this is a new feeling I don’t really know what else to do other than just sit with the irritability and not say anything or listen to music and redirect my annoyance I guess you could say?? Anyways I really hope you can not feel numbness anymore because I don’t wanna feel that way either.
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literally every little thing feels overwhelming!! today my fiancé was just talking to me in the car and i got so annoyed for no reason?? and it’s so frustrating because i do the same thing you said - about trying to make yourself cry - but with anxiety. i’m like, “oh no, maybe it WASN’T ocd that whole time. hang on, lemme see if i can make myself feel anxious.” which is so counterproductive 🤦🏻♀️
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@bdk RIGHT I completely understand that.. it’s such a fucking exhausting loop.
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@sendfrogpics just remember to take care of yourself and be kind to your mind. ❤️ which is literally so hard when your mind gives you shitty thoughts, but you gotta do what you gotta do.
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- 24w
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- 17w
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