I truly don't understand what's happening to me. I'm evolving into a monster... I swear absolutely every time my cat licks its private part I HAVE to watch it, my head physically moves and watches it, And i try to look away but my brain says "no u enjoy it, look right now" And I HAVE to look, and the worst part is it feels like I feel "pleasure" Both mentally and physically?!?! Like why is this happening? Why do I have to look? If somebody hold my head I would still need to look?!? What the fuck is happening:( I'm turning into a monster... Why am I watching my cat lick it's private part????? What form of sickness is this??? Why do I have to look? Why is my head moving there to look??? I can't believe this :( why does it feels like it's giving me pleasure? Do I look because im a sick monster not managing to control my fetishes? Is it a fetish? OCD can not do this right? I'm a monster, I'm a monster, im a monster. I need to quit ocd therapy. This isn't ocd. I can't believe why I was born a monster. why me, why me.

marty12

Date posted: 4y

It’s OCD, I promise you, it’s not you 💙

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

No, No no- ocd is a liar, has u questioning everything!! This is definitely the OCD freak out! 1/2 part trance 1/2 part terror. Your brain gets tired. 1st you dont realiize how hypervigilant you are you can’t really relax. The brain begins to fire because always looking for danger.

ocdyousuck

Date posted: 4y

Please try to calm down, I know it’s hard but you are definitely not a monster. I have experienced similar things regarding my pets too you’re not alone trust me. OCD is confined to set themes the themes can go on and on and on because in reality any theme doesn’t matter because they are all OCD.

ocdyousuck

Date posted: 4y

Ocd isnt*** confined to set themes, sorry typo

JessA 🌞

Date posted: 4y

The looking could actually be a compulsion. An opportunity for your OCD to slip in and start bullying you with this thinking, groinal sensations, analyzing and ruminating. Remember OCD wants you to be trapped and it will do whatever it takes. If it scares you OCD will attach. You are not a monster. Your OCD therapist will be able to help you

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 4y

Honest Question - What if you walked in on a person taking a Shower and cleaning their private parts? Or seen a stray dog cleaning it's private parts? Maybe a Deer cleaning another Deers private part.. Would you have to stare.. or just when Your Cat, does it? No judgement, just wondering. ☮️

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I am unsure. Why:( I feel like if I answer wrong it proves something awful..

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I'm trying to think but I don't know... :( it feels maybe more about my cat?! Idk why?! :( ohno.idk...

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I don't know...

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 4y

@helpmeee There's no wrong answer. It's not a trick question. Everyone here is living with OCD. You are normal.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@FrankieTF79 What did the question mean? :( sorry I'm just scared

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 4y

@helpmeee Are you overthinking my question? I honestly am wondering if you felt compelled to watch other humans/animals clean themselves, or just your Cat. There's nothing beyond that, honestly.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@FrankieTF79 But why do u wonder

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 4y

@helpmeee Good question. I have no earthly idea. Felt like asking. Is it just the Cat, or others too?

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@FrankieTF79 Just felt like a unnecessary question and it only triggered me so idk why u asked

JessA 🌞

Date posted: 4y

@helpmeee Are you ok? I understand how the question could be a bit triggering for you at the moment

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