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confession complusion :/
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lucy, be one hundred percent honest. do you truly want to recover from ocd? like do you truly want to recover from ocd and get better?
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Yes
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@lucy.wilefirr then you have to work for it. you can’t keep doing constant complusions (confessions, reassurance, ruminating) and expect to recover. you get out what you put in, you know that will only make things worse. i’m not trying to be mean but i have seen a lot of your posts and most are reassurance seeking or confessions. some last as long as months. if you want to get better you have to genuinely want it. i believe this app may be turning it to a complusion for you and if that’s the case you might need to take a break. i’m proud of how far you’ve come but if you want to go farther you have to stop stunting your own growth. i know it’s easier said than done but if you know compulsions only make everything much worse you need to stop doing them. compulsions do NOT make you remember things any clearly infact it makes your memory worse and makes it hard for you to trust yourself. compulsions will NOT make you feel better you’ll feel better for a bit then ten times worse after. if you want to feel better then you have to do better.
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@lucy.wilefirr start listening to ali greymond she could really help you. and make take a break from this app for a bit.
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@pai 😽 Yeah but if I’m a molester then I deserve punishment . Aren’t having obsessions without compulsions after the false memory proof that it’s not a false memory ? I don’t know if that’s an ocd thought
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@lucy.wilefirr try doing erp with this thought. write on a paper “yes i’m a molestor. even though i have no proof of being a molestor and have no memory of doing that, i am a molestor. i’m a molestor simply because my ocd told me i am. even though during this entire thing, ocd has always told me a bunch of lies. even tho ocd is extremely untrustworthy i’m trusting it anyways and believing it’s true.” write this down and re read it to yourself outloud in a sarcastic voice (maybe quietly) this works i promise
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@lucy.wilefirr also wdym “obsessions without compulsions about this thought” i have seen you doing many compulsions over this thought. and now you’re doing compulsions over whether or not you’re doing compulsions. 😟
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@pai 😽 But I do have a memory though. I used to think it was false but now I think it’s real, because of the way ocd developed . One false memory in grade 8, then in grade 9 I had obsessions of molesting friends but didn’t do any compulsions . I just remember the thoughts gave me anxiety and then not looking at them further . Then I had contamination ocd then POCD I think.
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@lucy.wilefirr oh okay then fix what i said to like properly show ur situation. but just agree with the thoughts and doubts out loud as erp
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@lucy.wilefirr did you listen to any ali greymond vids ?
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@pai 😽 Yeah . They’re helpful .
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@lucy.wilefirr 🖤
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I have no idea anymore. I guess this all started with me worrying about whether I was gay, then whether I was a P, then worried about being just attracted to teenagers. After that I started freaking out about not feeling “grown up” enough. Like “I’m an adult wtf is wrong with me for seeing someone who is probably younger and thinking they’re physically attractive. Then I started overthinking not finding older adults (like 30 or 40) very attractive. Like ofc I’m probably not gonna find them attractive, they’re not anywhere close my age. Maybe the desires are half real. Maybe as a 21 yr old young adult I do find older teenagers (16+) somewhat physically attractive. I still think it’d be weird to date one. Maybe that’s the normal reaction I’m supposed to have. If not, please let me know. I just don’t wanna do anything illegal one day and I’m super scared I will. I can’t tell if the fear is my just being afraid of the law though, in which case I might actually just be a bad person. I hate that my brain is just rationalizing thoughts now. I feel like I can’t do the ERP thing of “just accept that the thoughts are there but don’t engage.” Like what? How can I just think a thought that might be so integral to my identity and just ignore it? If it’s all true and I don’t like people my age anymore then I have to know and plan around that, that could change my entire life. I’m rambling, my b.
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TW So I haven’t been diagnosed with pocd, but many ppl said that I have it. I was in bed when I remembered this time when I first started experiencing what I hope is false attraction not actual pedophilia, I’m looking back on it rn n I’m worried it wasn’t false attraction, I remember feeling a sense of attraction when I saw that kid, I was about14 at the time and the kid was 11 or 12. I remember constantly searching to see if it was normal for a 14 year old to like a 12 or 11 year old, I was worried when I was doing that i think, I also kept walking pass her to look at her i think to check if i was attracted or not, but it makes me worried that I was attracted to her because im worried that i did it bc i was actually attracted. now looking back on it rn, I don’t feel panic, worry, shame, or guilt, I originally only felt panic and worry, never shame or guilt. Now I don’t feel any of it, not feeling panic and worry now makes me think that I am a p, I don’t want to be a p. I hope im not a p, Ive talked to a therapist and they’ve said that it’s pocd, but it wasn’t a official diagnosis, I’m worried it was a false diagnosis because I lied on one or two of the questions. I also constantly get senses of what I hope is false attraction when I see some kids, I keep trying to figure out if it is real or false attraction. Can someone give me some advice please
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TW So I haven’t been diagnosed with pocd, but many ppl said that I have it. I was in bed when I remembered this time when I first started experiencing what I hope is false attraction not actual pedophilia, I’m looking back on it rn n I’m worried it wasn’t false attraction, I remember feeling a sense of attraction when I saw that kid, I was about14 at the time and the kid was 11 or 12. I remember constantly searching to see if it was normal for a 14 year old to like a 12 or 11 year old, I was worried when I was doing that i think, I also kept walking pass her to look at her i think to check if i was attracted or not, but it makes me worried that I was attracted to her because im worried that i did it bc i was actually attracted. now looking back on it rn, I don’t feel panic, worry, shame, or guilt, I originally only felt panic and worry, never shame or guilt. Now I don’t feel any of it, not feeling panic and worry now makes me think that I am a p, I don’t want to be a p. I hope im not a p, Ive talked to a therapist and they’ve said that it’s pocd, but it wasn’t a official diagnosis, I’m worried it was a false diagnosis because I lied on one or two of the questions. I also constantly get senses of what I hope is false attraction when I see some kids, and I keep trying to figure out if it is real or false attraction. Also some other time today I was feeling aroused and I wanted to m#sturbate, but then thoughts of kids started popping up, I think that I didn’t like them, I’m not sure any more, but while I was finishing the thoughts kept comigg by, idk what it means but it felt like I enjoyed it, which made me worried, but after I finished the thoughts disappeared a lot more, idk why that happened idk what it means, could someone give me some advice pls?? I don’t wanna be a pedo. All of that happening makes me feel like I am one, can someone give me advice on what’s happening and what I am??
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