I generally suffer from "pure o" which means I get a lot of ocd themes and they change all the time. But especially today I started to suffer from religion ocd. I've had these thoughts before but today they've gotten worse and this makes me unfortunately believe in them even more. I've always been a faithful christian and I never want to change my religion. But especially today for some reason I started to get really scared that I might convert to another religion. (There's a specific religion but I would prefer not to mention it's name not to hurt the feelings of it's believers or to cause any misunderstanding). I'm starting to get these thoughts that this religion is right and christianity isn't and these thoughts are very disturbing and they feel so real. It actually feels like that I actually believe in that and it's scaring me to death. I feel like I don't believe in christianity in anymore and that I particularly believe in the other religion. The big problem is for me that I always try to use faith to deal with ocd which did help me and give me some hope. But now I feel like I can't do that anymore because it feels like I don't believe in my religion in the first place which is never the case. Like how would I pray to god as a christian or use christian faith to deal with ocd when I don't believe in it anymore. Or atleast that's how I feel like. I keep asking myself these type of questions and it's driving me crazy. It's very confusing and this is by far the most hopeless and depressed I've ever felt because most of the time faith felt like my only hope especially with ocd. I don't know what to do I'm very confused. Can anyone relate to me and give me any advice on how to deal with this?

Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for dealing with religious OCD. I'm a Christian and I struggle with Harm OCD but then somehow, my religious beliefs got mixed into this where I am suddenly asking all these questions on whether God/Jesus is even good. And as a result, I feel so distant from my faith which makes dealing with my harm OCD so much harder 😢 Any advice would be appreciated.

So about 2 years ago I gave my life to Jesus. I've always been a "Christian" but never truly lived liked one. Honestly never truly felt love for them until 2 years ago. It was the best couple months of my life!!! I felt so happy and loved and unstoppable! I thought this fire for God & Jesus will never burn out. One day I had a thought about is God real? It bothered me so bad and I went into a massive spiral. Doubting everything. My faith. if I was good enough. Am I really saved? Do I have enough faith? Is my doubt real? Is it too much? Have these blasphemous made God not want me anymore? Or Jesus? :( But I knew I was and that they were real! I know I've heard them. Then I started having horrible blasphemous thoughts but then it would go back to doubting thoughts then back to the blasphemous ones. I hated the thoughts and doubts. The thoughts are so mean towards God, Jesus & HS. It’s anywhere from evil thoughts to cussing thoughts to rejection thoughts/denying. Demonic thoughts. Literally anything bad you could think of! Even thoughts of if I really love them or wanna follow them. I learned about OCD from what I've looked up but I've been dealing with this for about 2 years now. It's hard. I doubt if it’s OCD. Definitely feel like I'm trapped or my faith isn't the same. Which makes me sad because I want my faith! I feel like I've gotten lazy and honestly that I don't deserve them or am "too far gone" from them. I feel like idk how to be a Christian or how to have faith or just exist tbh. I wanna love God & Jesus! I want faith! I just feel kinda stuck. Has anyone gone through this or has advice or tips?