I feel absolutely hopeless. I have whole body sensorimotor obsessions. Breathing, swallowing, thinking, existing, vision. Nothing is working. I'm trying to face it but it's always a nonstop crippling disease. I've tried classic erp techniques but it goes nowhere. I can't take medication cuz I have been addicted to alcohol for many years before I knew what I was dealing with. I have a fear of being up. Fear of calming down. And nothing takes it away.

I know what it’s like to feel hopeless but it will get better. Did you try therapy from an OCD specialist?

I am the same way most everything you wrote in your post I can relate it’s as if I wrote your post! Lol. You are not alone. I also come from a history of addictions and cannot tolerate meds. Wish we could talk in pm but it looks like that isn’t offered here. Hope you are ok hang in there

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Isn’t that more for physical back and neck pain? I like it though

Actually at first it's advised for people having back or neck issues but the thing is that the endorphin your brain relieves allows all of the body to heal.