i truly believe i am a lesbian/bisexual in denial. i am truly convinced of that. can this all feel this real???

but the thing is i don't want to like girls i just don't want to!!! and what if my past attractions to men have been comphet? i just don't want to be with a girl i don't want to but it feels like i have to :(

@Nour04 Sorry what does comphet mean?

@Nour04 You don't have to be with anyone you don't want to, remember that ❤ never ever!

@Ríona it's horrible so i am just going to warn you before you search it. it makes me sick to the stomach each time

@Nour04 I am a bisexual woman so if you ever need to ask any questions about what it feels like to actually be attracted to women versus not, you can talk to me, but I also don't want to just be giving you reassurance because that will not be helpful in the long run. Can I ask if you're against the idea of it just because of preference, or is there a religious or moral aspect as well? This will help me to better understand where you're coming from.

@Ríona could you tell me what it’s like i have fantasies about threesomes mostly FFM with my boyfriend and i get super turned on by the idea of having sex with a woman but i know straight women do that too but some dont

@Ríona well, i am religious but i believe that God created everyone just the way they are and He loves them no matter what. it's just that i don't want to be with girls. i don't know what's the reason i just don't want to :(

@holley Fantasies are just fantasies. And what's more, I actually know a girl who had a FFM threesome even though she's straight! And there are straight women who prefer to watch lesbian porn because it is from a female perspective so they can relate more to it, yknow? I would say, when you're attracted to women it's like... you see someone and you find yourself wanting to kiss or touch her or get a butterflies feeling around her like you would with a guy. Like you know what a crush feels like, right, it's more than just a sexual fantasy, it's a feeling of wanting to be around that person all the time, or to feel like you're always aware of where they are in a room, etc. Or you can imagine yourself being married to them and the thought makes you feel happy

@holley HOWEVER, and I don't want to trigger you here, but there is also such a thing as having a preference for men or women, and personally I find that I fall in love with men more easily and my feelings for women are more physical than romantic, but I still consider myself bi because I'm sure that if I met the right girl I could fall in love with her too, I just currently happen to be in love with a man and so that skews it a little for me because I can't imagine life without him lol

@Ríona yeah that’s not me tbh

@holley Yeah if you only like the idea of being with a girl while your boyfriend is there, it might just be a kink. But if you would like the idea of being with a girl only, then it could be a real attraction

@Ríona no i only really fantasize about a threesome

@holley But that could also be that you just have trouble imaging your boyfriend not being in your life. I have that issue too and I go "am I really bi??" But then I remember I've had crushes on females lol

@Ríona i wouldn’t ever date a girl but i think i’ve been sexually attracted to one before but we didn’t do anything cause it was awkward for me but i try not to pay attention to that cause it makes my hocd worse

@holley Remember everyone you don't have to date anyone you don't want to <3

@Ríona do i need to worry about that one attraction?

@holley Why would you have to worry about it? Just let it be. Let the thoughts come into your head and then leave. No need to grab onto them.

but what if all of this isn't even hocd, just denial???

@Nour04 I know I think that and that you will have to live this way forever