why do I feel like I would actually like eating 🐱?? is it me talking or my hocd??

yeah yesterday and today i have been more busy going out and the thoughts are have somewhat lessened. why do you say i can't know? is it because i am not mentally stable enough? i really don't want to :(

@Nour04 I'm in the same place, other way around. The feelings get more intense the longer we think about it and more we care about said thought. You just need to let it pass through your head without trying to figure it out

@Nour04 you cant know because you are still dealing with hocd. it will never let you come to a conclusion while you are still dealing with it. none of us will know our sexuality until we are recovered. it sucks but thats the truth. continue working and you will gain clarity. ocd is extremely powerful so dont let it get to you.

@ocdomi so you're saying i might not be straight and actually like girls????

@Nour04 im saying that there is a chnace you could be straight but there is also a chnace you could like girls. im not going to give you reassurance cause it will only make you worse. the truth hurts but its the only way you will get better. accept the uncertainty.

@ocdomi but doesn't it mean accepting that i am gay???

@Nour04 how can you accept you are gay if you dont even know if you are?? it makes zero sense. if you wouldnt want to do it then you dont. stop listening to the “feeling i might like it” cause thats the ocd fucking with you.

@Nour04 you are saying you “might” like it. thats basically the equivalent to a “what if” thought. ocd is doing all of this just to get under your skin. STOP RUMINATING ON EVERY THOUGHT THAT COMES ACROSS YOUR MIND cause thats what is making you feel like you are in denial. you are digging yourself into a deeper hole by thinking that every thought has a “deeper meaning” when its literally just a thought. its the same as thinking “what if i just jumped off that bridge” does that have a deeper meaning that you want to harm yourself? it might, it might not. you have to sit with the uncertainty of things cause that is what is making you worse and worse

@ocdomi but they all feel like i want them and like them, and there is no anxiety towards these thoughts. my checks and tests feel like fantasies because there is no anxiety when i think about them, it makes me feel like i want them and like them too :( i know that at this point people are bored of all the posting ans nagging i do, it's just that i genuinely feel like i like them because there is no anxiety

@Nour04 I just want to say I completely understand how you feel, I also have no anxiety when I check to see if I would like a scenario and it freaks me out and confuses me.

@b13 it feels good to know it's not just me and this just might be ocd. do you feel like you want them and like them too??

@Nour04 yes! and when I try to think about it with a boy I get really anxious and that makes me feel like I don’t like it?? But I used to enjoy fantasising like that so its so confusing. I never know what to do.

@b13 same you're not alone in this!