Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
Ocd Warrior Ocd Warrior
- Date posted
- 4y
Iâm glad to see youve been posting less, but anyways you canât know, Iâve said it a lot but yku canât know if you would or wouldnât
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
yeah yesterday and today i have been more busy going out and the thoughts are have somewhat lessened. why do you say i can't know? is it because i am not mentally stable enough? i really don't want to :(
Brad2517Brad2517
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 I'm in the same place, other way around. The feelings get more intense the longer we think about it and more we care about said thought. You just need to let it pass through your head without trying to figure it out
ocdomiocdomi
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 you cant know because you are still dealing with hocd. it will never let you come to a conclusion while you are still dealing with it. none of us will know our sexuality until we are recovered. it sucks but thats the truth. continue working and you will gain clarity. ocd is extremely powerful so dont let it get to you.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@ocdomi so you're saying i might not be straight and actually like girls????
ocdomiocdomi
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 im saying that there is a chnace you could be straight but there is also a chnace you could like girls. im not going to give you reassurance cause it will only make you worse. the truth hurts but its the only way you will get better. accept the uncertainty.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@ocdomi but doesn't it mean accepting that i am gay???
ocdomiocdomi
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 how can you accept you are gay if you dont even know if you are?? it makes zero sense. if you wouldnt want to do it then you dont. stop listening to the âfeeling i might like itâ cause thats the ocd fucking with you.
ocdomiocdomi
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 you are saying you âmightâ like it. thats basically the equivalent to a âwhat ifâ thought. ocd is doing all of this just to get under your skin. STOP RUMINATING ON EVERY THOUGHT THAT COMES ACROSS YOUR MIND cause thats what is making you feel like you are in denial. you are digging yourself into a deeper hole by thinking that every thought has a âdeeper meaningâ when its literally just a thought. its the same as thinking âwhat if i just jumped off that bridgeâ does that have a deeper meaning that you want to harm yourself? it might, it might not. you have to sit with the uncertainty of things cause that is what is making you worse and worse
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@ocdomi but they all feel like i want them and like them, and there is no anxiety towards these thoughts. my checks and tests feel like fantasies because there is no anxiety when i think about them, it makes me feel like i want them and like them too :( i know that at this point people are bored of all the posting ans nagging i do, it's just that i genuinely feel like i like them because there is no anxiety
b13b13
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 I just want to say I completely understand how you feel, I also have no anxiety when I check to see if I would like a scenario and it freaks me out and confuses me.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@b13 it feels good to know it's not just me and this just might be ocd. do you feel like you want them and like them too??
b13b13
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 yes! and when I try to think about it with a boy I get really anxious and that makes me feel like I donât like it?? But I used to enjoy fantasising like that so its so confusing. I never know what to do.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@b13 same you're not alone in this!
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- Date posted
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