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First of all, having a fetish doesn't make you a bad person. Second, testing yourself seems like you're feeding into your compulsions. Third, I don't know much about whatever fetish it is, but have you tried looking up other people's personal stories online about their experience with the fetish to get a better idea on where it might be coming from? You don't have to post on those groups' forums, just browse their comments.
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I dont because I'm scared of it of feeding it I just want it to be gone. I think looking it up may make me spiral that I'm gross and perverted somehow. It's not a sexual thing on its own so it gets brought up time to time like in stories and stuff that my friends like and that makes me freak out and so I want it to be gone.
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@creature I'm scared the reason I'm into it may be predatory because my ocd focuses on me being a predator
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I’ve had situations like these that are just very overwhelming and messy. I suggest really just taking a break from all these things and clearing your mind through meditation or something like that. And I totally get you with the dream thing sometimes I end up doing things when I’m half asleep to my dreams when they aren’t even sexual at all. It can set me back a lot but we have to remember to accept these events for what happened as far as your knowledge and not try to analyze what “really happened”.
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