Anybody elses experiences being afraid og getting depressed? And are afraid of getting negative thoughts like "Nothing makes sense or makes me happy" even though you know Its not true? - Its like getting instrutive thoughts about depression?

Yes I've feared and obsessed about depression for very long. Then as I would obsess about it I'd even start feeling the symptoms of it but it turns out that those are the same symptoms of anxiety. I have suicide OCD and I think that's where my fear of depression stemmed from. I fear anything that might lead me to feeling unhappy and ultimately fear killing my self. I fear other mental illnesses like bipolar as well. I fear the same thoughts that you have "nothing makes sense, nothing makes me happy, like has no purpose, life has no meaning" I know they're not true. And when I'm not thinking these thoughts I'm back to my regular happy self.

@j289l I have had the same exact thoughts and also have SOCD. What we experience is super similar and also super scary because it feels real. Every time I say something like “what if life never gets better or ill never be truly happy again” I also get worried about the SOCD, it’s all connected. Your ocd wants you to believe everything it’s saying completely

Hi j289l, It’s me again. Everything you describe is exactly what I have been going through for about 6 months. Mine began with a very strong fear of killing my family after I saw a story on the news. I have been experiencing intrusive thoughts for about a year prior in regards to harming my little girl. This has now morphed into a fear of becoming depressed and killing my self, as my profession has a history of mental health disorders and suicide. I am struggling with the thoughts/questions of what is the meaning of life, is there meaning to life, am I happy. I had been doing pretty good for about a week and heard a story of someone whose son killed himself and I feel like I’m back to square 1. I also experience feelings that cause extreme anxiety, feelings of this sucks just give in. And I scares the hell out of me. Are you currently in treatment or on meds? If you don’t mind sharing of course.

My harm OCD actually revolved around hurting my family for many years while I was younger before I even knew what OCD was and before I was diagnosed. It evolved into SOCD too. I saw a therapist for 4 months every week and now I see her once a month and it really helped. She specializes in OCD. I have never taken medication. The therapy really helped. We practiced ERP. For example I read articles on depression and suicide and don't argue with my thoughts. It has been tough but I've been able to manage. I still get the thoughts especially when I'm stressed. I think stress really triggers OCD for everyone.

Oh Thank you! - I dont have a depression though, But Im a afraid of it and these thoughts first entered my mind today, and I thought it was a little wierd!

I understand! Don't worry about it. If you don't have it now, SMILE! ? your doing amazing Mias ?