when i first got triggered by my ocd theme i had no clue i had ocd or knew what ocd really was. which part of me wishes i never found out that i had ocd is because not knowing was easier for me to “overcome” my theme like it was so confusing to me i didn’t know why i was obsessing and freaking out but then it would suddenly go away but then fast forward to a few months ago i got triggered again and was so upset that it was back again and i was having panic attacks and crying for days then finally went to a therapist and found out it was ocd. now knowing i have ocd is so upsetting because i know i will never be the same me ever again