I have these intrusive thoughts that I know are morally wrong. The thoughts say that I want for a certain bad to happen to someone. Such as rape. I know that I do not hope or wish such a thing on anyone, but it feels like my mind is trying to force me to agree with hoping or wishing whatever bad thing on a specific person. After the thoughts have been there for a while, I feel ashamed and feel like a psycho.

Cesar

Date posted: 4y

Good news, you have ocd and this is why the intrusive thoughts are so scary, good news you're not your thoughts and it's why they bother you, don't feel ashamed, you didn't create ocd, it's not your fault, seek therapy, see this opportunity as a way to get closer to God as it has been for me, there's lots of good changes in my life I've done because of the ocd experience and I've gotten closer to God as a result and even though some days are bad, the good days out do the bad ones. God bless you, He loves you so much and He's always with you.

InChristAlone

Date posted: 4y

me too- but it has forced me to become stronger, more determined and intellectual with my surroundings; there is good that comes out of it... it's difficult to find. You are so loved no matter what you have done, what you have been through or who you are- Christ loves you so much he died for you, my friend :)

Cheetahvionic

Date posted: 4y

Thank you

Morpheus 75

Date posted: 4y

It's a shithole I'm stuck into! Always, always I'm forced to have these thoughts, violence, rape, torture and so on. And I talk to myself constantly so I end up being afraid that someone could hear me when I say my horrible thoughts outloud and want to hurt me or the people I care about (I never have those compulsions toward people I don't like, it's always about people I care about - or it can also be toward people I fear).

ocdisnotaslay

Date posted: 13w

Scary thoughtsss

Is there something wrong with me if I’m not disgusted by my intrusive thoughts anymore like the disgust feeling has been gone for months now and why are my thoughts feel like they’re literally so close happening inside my brain why can I lowkey physically feel the images of that makes sense,Why do I get adrenaline why do I get a weird tingle my lips sometimes make an awkward like position when I get the thoughts it’s like I’m having a glitch idek which thought is intentional which one is intrusive but there bad thoughts and I don’t want them to be the truth about me but I literally cannot get myself to just feel relaxed even if they’re present like I actually get genuine headaches and feel uneasy for hours after having intrusive thoughts and I hate how it’s always the same kinda thoughts and sensations feelings etc around those thoughts out of nowhere when I’m just chilling they come in before when I had it is be like okay ew weird thought now I’m like what if I actually like this and I’m in denial uGHHH HATE MY BRAIN

Laila..

Date posted: 13w

Religious ocd

Hi guys! Kind of panicking right now. My mind has gotten so dark and my thoughts have gotten evil and terrifying I’m so scared. And I feel Like I’m at the point where I’m convincing myself they’re real. Like I’m terrified of acting on it or that I’m choosing these thoughts. I’ll tell you guys what thoughts they are. These horrible terrifying awful thoughts of not wanting others saved. Like thoughts like I don’t want others to know Jesus. Especially this one specific thought about this girl. It’s TERRIFYING because this one specific thought that is in my mind all the time is attached to real feelings I have for this guy. And this girl is a Christian and she’s so pretty and I started having thoughts that I don’t want her saved or to know Jesus so that this guy who is a really strong believer that I like won’t like her. PLEASE I NEED TO KNOW THIS ISNT ME YOU GUYS. I just need to know this thought IS NOT ME. And then it gets so bad to where I wake up in the morning and it feels like I’m accepting these thoughts. Like I want these thoughts. Or like I’m choosing them. I’m so deeply terrified I don’t know what to do. I just need to know they’re not me, that my heart is aligned with Gods heart. That I want EVERYONE SAVED

Fcukocd

Date posted: 9w

I need to know if I’m alone

Does anyone else get intrusive thoughts of same sex oral sex? I’ve been struggling with this repeated intrusive thought for over two years, and everytime I get it it’s like a stab in the chest, I hate it so much if I think about it for too long it makes me feel sick and I’d never want to do it so why does it keep coming back 😔

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