- Username
- Cheetahvionic
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Good news, you have ocd and this is why the intrusive thoughts are so scary, good news you're not your thoughts and it's why they bother you, don't feel ashamed, you didn't create ocd, it's not your fault, seek therapy, see this opportunity as a way to get closer to God as it has been for me, there's lots of good changes in my life I've done because of the ocd experience and I've gotten closer to God as a result and even though some days are bad, the good days out do the bad ones. God bless you, He loves you so much and He's always with you.
me too- but it has forced me to become stronger, more determined and intellectual with my surroundings; there is good that comes out of it... it's difficult to find. You are so loved no matter what you have done, what you have been through or who you are- Christ loves you so much he died for you, my friend :)
Thank you
It's a shithole I'm stuck into! Always, always I'm forced to have these thoughts, violence, rape, torture and so on. And I talk to myself constantly so I end up being afraid that someone could hear me when I say my horrible thoughts outloud and want to hurt me or the people I care about (I never have those compulsions toward people I don't like, it's always about people I care about - or it can also be toward people I fear).
I’ve been dealing with intrusive violent images/urges/thoughts for months now. Lately it’s gotten worse. Sometimes when I see a person i automatically imagine hurting them, sometimes to see if I enjoy the thought or not, or sometimes it just appears in my head and I try to cut it off immediately. It’s like i just can not interact with people because I can’t tell if I’m a risk or not. If I’m capable of hurting them or not. I hate it because I’m all day trying to get an answer to whether I want to harm people or not. I’m constantly asking myself: have you ever desired the thought? Do you want to do it or not? And all of the above makes me feel anormal and like a psycho. And of course, another doubt comes into my head: do you really don’t want to be a bad person? And it’s a never ending disturbing and frustrating cycle... I can’t stop it, it’s driving me crazy and it makes me desperate. Is all this even normal?
i saw a picture of a pretty girl on instagram just now and the first intrusive thought that came to my mind was me saying i would love to *insert the most horrible sexual abusive thing* to her. i am absolutely disgusted with my brain and i want to throw up. why would i even get that thought. i’m not even sexually active and would never do ANYTHING to hurt anyone. i get the worst sexually intrusive thoughts and it makes me feel awful because that is just not me. but my ocd makes me feel like it is. i don’t want to think like this anymore. why does my ocd make me suffer in this way. i would take any other form of ocd over this. does anyone else get these intrusive thoughts or is it just me
does any one else have an intrusive thought and you go over it in your head and try to see if you react in a good or bad way? i’ve been having bad intrusive thoughts but i sometimes have this feeling inside that i like it? and i feel it’s right and i agree inside but my other thoughts are saying no i hate it ?!
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