I have these intrusive thoughts that I know are morally wrong. The thoughts say that I want for a certain bad to happen to someone. Such as rape. I know that I do not hope or wish such a thing on anyone, but it feels like my mind is trying to force me to agree with hoping or wishing whatever bad thing on a specific person. After the thoughts have been there for a while, I feel ashamed and feel like a psycho.

Good news, you have ocd and this is why the intrusive thoughts are so scary, good news you're not your thoughts and it's why they bother you, don't feel ashamed, you didn't create ocd, it's not your fault, seek therapy, see this opportunity as a way to get closer to God as it has been for me, there's lots of good changes in my life I've done because of the ocd experience and I've gotten closer to God as a result and even though some days are bad, the good days out do the bad ones. God bless you, He loves you so much and He's always with you.

me too- but it has forced me to become stronger, more determined and intellectual with my surroundings; there is good that comes out of it... it's difficult to find. You are so loved no matter what you have done, what you have been through or who you are- Christ loves you so much he died for you, my friend :)

It's a shithole I'm stuck into! Always, always I'm forced to have these thoughts, violence, rape, torture and so on. And I talk to myself constantly so I end up being afraid that someone could hear me when I say my horrible thoughts outloud and want to hurt me or the people I care about (I never have those compulsions toward people I don't like, it's always about people I care about - or it can also be toward people I fear).