How did it all start for you guys? I see a lot of people scared of the possibility of being bisexual but I think that possibility depends on how you got it and what your worries actually are. I think a lot of people also come out as bi to nullify it, I even considered it extensively but I never felt like I fit in with it, how can I be bi if I don’t like men right? For me I thought I was gay for a couple days before finding out what SO OCD was. Even days after I didn’t know if it was even a real thing because people say it was homophobia or something. But I feel like it was a bit different because I was 90% convinced that I was gay just by precedent. I was in distress and I would go to the bathroom at work and hold in my tears, I didn’t wanna cry cause I felt that that would be me accepting it. It was a really confusing time and now that I’m a bit more sure in my sexuality I still get annoying thoughts. I saw that people in denial are classified as people who are just hiding the fact that they are gay from other people and that became one of the the thoughts in my head after reading that, I don’t worry about it while talking to family but everytime any topic regarding sexuality comes up I get pretty uncomfortable, not because I feel like I’m hiding something it’s just I feel like I don’t really want anything to do with the topic anymore, I am not a social person, I have social anxiety but I always had crushes on girls. Hell I even have a crush on a girl right now and that was enough for me. There’s one thing though. Not that convinces me that I’m homosexual but one that makes me wonder if I’m asexual or lack a preference of anyone. I always wanted to have a kid but in my mind I never imagined raising a kid with someone else. I always imagined it just me and the kid going about life, I even looked up solo adoption when I was 17. But there were also scenarios where I imagined myself completely alone, I constantly think that if I were in a relationship or have a kid then that would completely stop my life in its tracks, it prevent me from moving forward. Even so I still identify more with being straight because I’m the end of the day because I am sexually attracted to women and I try to put on my best look for all the girls I’m ever around.