I don't believe in God and I know it's all scientifically not true but a few days ago I prayed (even tho I don't believe in God and know not religious) and right after something very good happened so now I'm scared if the praying stuff actually worked like what the actual fuck that is crazy and I know that makes no sense because it's scientifically not possible but now I prayed again and now I'm scared that something good will happen again because that "proves" That it actually works

Idk if this is common. Praying for something to me currently just seems just like a thought. So if I want a fantasy “amen.” This includes a fantasy where I’m escaping the world from aliens and go on a space adventure, and a bunch of people die. But I prayed for that quickly cause I wanted the fantasy aspect and said “amen” in my head and didn’t feel like a bad person. I don’t think I’d normally pray for it. Then ocd inserted a fantasy where the aliens attack a specific group of people. Well I like the fantasy idea. So I prayed for it in my head and said “amen,” and didn’t feel like a bad person. But I’m wondering if I am. This praying stuff then can apply to all sorts of things I want, including any desires that maybe I shouldn’t have. I prayed to pray for it, so technically I prayed for it. It doesn’t seem bad to me at first, but it might be. I don’t know if this makes sense. Before this prayer obsession, I wouldn’t have thought much about this

I don't even believe in God but I start praying every time I am anxious and when something doesn't go the way I planned I just think that it's because I disappointed Him. What the fuck is wrong with me?! I even keep a necklace that make me feel protected and when I get over the anxiety attack I just feel so stupid.

This is really complicated but it isn’t just intrusive thoughts, however I didn’t directly do the prayer. I’ll do my best to explain. I’ve been having an obsession over prayers. There have been a few bad prayers I’ve almost done and meant that are not good. A week and a half ago, I was feeling desperate and I had the genuine urge to pray for my parents to die in a way which somehow wasn’t my fault (I couldn’t be morally responsible for the prayer was another condition too), because if I attempted suicide, it would devastate them. Thankfully, I stopped myself, but that mindset stuck. If I was worried about it, it could actually put me back in that mindset where I wanted to pray for it. I know this sounds crazy. So it followed me around sometimes. OCD has found loopholes to actually doing the prayer. I have prayed to pray for certain things, meaning I am indirectly praying for it. This was sort of like that, except my mind designated that blinking while thinking of it a certain way would be a prayer. To me, this actually meant it was a prayer because of magical thinking. I ended up blinking while thinking of this, and I did regret it right after, but in that moment, I meant it. I essentially blinked during that moment to magically agree with and do the prayer. And to me, it was doing the prayer. I meant it while doing this too, but didn’t care afterwards. To me, stepping back, it does feel different than directly doing the prayer. This probably doesn’t make much sense