Hi, hope everyone is having an ok day. I wanted to throw the question out there to see if anyone has shared this similar experience (yes this may be a compulsion, but I am desperate right now and don’t know where else to turn to.) So my main theme started as POCD a few weeks ago after learning more about OCD. I would have frequent HOCD thoughts, but usually disregarded them as POCD were more disturbing (weird, but true) and distressing to me in the moment. Now, within the last few days, my themes have changed to 85% HOCD and I am thinking about all sorts of things and then placing myself in jail for “committing “ these crimes. It is absolutely driving me bonkers and messing with my ability to function. I had a hysterical Crying attack earlier where I felt like this was never going to end and I was hopeless. P.S. I believe I have had OCD for many years, but it has not been this heightened before. Any advice or similarities? Thanks you guys.

Hi. I am literally in the same boat as you. I have HOCD and POCD and Trauma. I always had OCD but was able to live a normal life. I am in treatment @ Rogers ready to discharge and a new subtype came up. Ugh.

I feel hopeless and had a crying attack too. I am so sorry.

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this too. Good to hear you’re in therapy, I start mine next week hopefully. This has all started within the past months. I mean you would’ve thought I was hit with a ton of bricks at once. After learning about OCD and the symptoms, I can definitely look back on my life and notice similarities. I have not been diagnosed with OCD so this is mere speculation, but there are just too many similarities for me not to think I suffer from OCD.

That’s what I thought too. And what most scholarly written articles state. It’s a cruel thing but absolutely legit. I haven’t received treatment and/or medicication. I’m looking forward to feeling better. Have you gone through ERP? Any successes? Advice? Has the medication worked for you?

@leo1188 that was super helpful, thank you. Real good insight to know, especially going into my diagnostic and therapy next week! I can’t believe you had that reaction to the medication, that seems scary. I’m hoping I can get through this without medication, but am open to it. If you don’t mind me asking, what was a “manic episode” to you? I ask because I have had several of those experiences the past few weeks were I will ruminate for hours, searching google-trying to understand why I am experiencing this all of a sudden. Like you, I never knew OCD could affect like this. It comes in waves, but usually have severely upsetting days and ok days.