Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
cheyrascheyras
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
If you even have to ask, it is OCD. It just is. Whether it feels like it is or not. OCD is a real tricky bastard to pin down!
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
yeah i get it but the thing is that i haven't been having much thoughts lately and if i did i was able to put them off or ignore them because i was distracted
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 so like it makes it feel like less ocd
obsessivekatpulsiveobsessivekat...
- Date posted
- 4y
Does it cause u anxiety? If so, probably OCD. Try to sit with the uncertainty that you could be or could not be gay, and try to not find the perfect answer. I know it's difficult but you got this.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
well it used to at first but not anymore. like now i am crying and begging for it to be ocd. i can carry on with my days, not like when it first started, and the anxiety has lessened which makes me doubt it's hocd. i feel like people on this app really think i'm in denial
obsessivekatpulsiveobsessivekat...
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 What if you don't try to get the answer right now? I don't wanna provide you too much reassurance, but this is a common experience for OCD sufferers. We get latched onto anxiety and it feels "normal" -- my themes aren't the same as yours, but I've had this experience with other things.
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@kradish for the past 2 months or so thoughts have gone down a lot and it doesn't affect my life much anymore. this isn't ocd then right? i don't have debilitating anxiety anymore. i just am hopeless. do you think this is ocd? please be honest
JPK333JPK333
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Hi Nour04. Since being diagnosed with OCD (HOCD) I have noticed my disgust of sex with the same sex is less then before which now scares me due to accepting the thoughts but trying not to agree with them. But the thought of having sex and more importantly a romantic relationship with the same sex is a put off for me and creates anxiety. I have kind of just accepted the fact that I might be bisexual or gay. The main thing is I love my wife and wish to continue the romantic relationship with her. I am 41 so it has not been easy going through this too as I have 2 daughters, ages 7 and 9. Stay strong Nour and live one day at a time in try your best to live in the present. It is hard but the more you focus on what you want in life the better it will be.
JPK333JPK333
- Date posted
- 4y
@HSP I was diagnosed when I was going through another theme and then jumped to my sexuality. That is how I know it is OCD.
obsessivekatpulsiveobsessivekat...
- Date posted
- 4y
I think you know you have OCD and you are very distressed. And that's okay. I'm here for you but I don't want to keep reassuring you too much cuz I could be making it worse. I know it's OCD because I do this too, but are you able to accept you may not be able to be 100% certain?
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
i don't think i'm even that distressed. i don't know who i am anymore or what "part" of me is talking
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 sometimes i am okay with the idea of liking women and am able to say i don't care whatever, but then i say "but i don't want to"
obsessivekatpulsiveobsessivekat...
- Date posted
- 4y
@Nour04 Try to stick with the not caring. You can do this! The thought is distressing but it's just a thought. It will pass. The best you can do is work on your reaction to the thought. :)
Nour04Nour04
- Date posted
- 4y
@kradish thank you for being so kind and sweet and taking the time to reply to me! thanks infinitely!!
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