So I go back to college next week over 300 miles away from my home and I am so scared I’m not gonna be able to do it. My mom is like my comfort person and I feel like she keeps me sane and I’m so worried I’m gonna go to college, not have her and completely lose control. It terrifies me and I feel like I shouldn’t go. Idk what to do. I have to go because my parents put a lot of Money into this, but I’m so terrified of who I’ll turn into.

I'm in exactly the same position (I'm only an hour and a half away from home though). It's really scary but I think we just need to try and see how it goes!

Many colleges and universities have counseling services available at little or no cost. I would look into what's offered at your school. Be sure to ask for and seek a counselor though that understands and has experience with OCD. Have you talked with your mom about this? Depending on your situation, sometimes taking a break from other things to focus on our own well being is what's needed as well.

Just want you to know I’ve been in your shoes and I understand how you’re feeling. Here for you, friend.

I understand, I live by myself as well and know how that can make it harder. Keep in mind that your mom is just a phone call away. Also remember that there's a community here who understands what you're going through and can be here for you also.

While distraction is not the greatest thing when dealing with OCD (at least when doing ERP and trying to calm down during an exposure), I think finding some sort of healthy outlet for those nerves would be good. I’ve been living by myself 6 hrs away from my parents for the last year and I definitely spent way too much time ruminating and it lead me to really struggle and revert to some of my old unhealthy behaviors. Finding something to do that makes you happy and can occupy your thoughts so that negative ones can’t weasel themself in will really help. It doesn’t even have to be anything big or difficult, just something that uses your mind. I always found myself to be in better moods in the days following my discovery of a new video game to play or catching up on a new podcast or even just reading a book. And like others have said, your mom is just a phone call away and will I’m sure always be happy to talk with you and help you in any way she can.