Really struggling today. After a period of very little intrusive thoughts today they are triggering so much.
I’m yo-yo-ing. One minute I’m okay the next I’m feeling like I can’t do this fight anymore and totally hopeless.
I have my assessment tommorow. I understand how sitting with the uncertainty and discomfort/thoughts etc is how we get better but my thoughts are not just uncomfortable.
They are tormenting and terrifying. They are abhorrent. How do you sit with that.
I’m scared that sitting with them and accepting them means accepting what they are and I will never and can never do that.
It will never be okay with me.
So how can I get better?