Any advice / insight / words of comfort or wisdom would be extremely appreciated. Two of my themes are working wayyyy too well together right now and I truly feel like I’m losing my mind. Lately, I feel like I really haven’t been able to feel any sort of emotion. This includes feeling love towards my boyfriend, and it’s painful as hell. I’ve always worried that when I start feeling more “normal” around him and don’t get butterflies anymore, that there has to be something wrong. Along with this, of course, I’ve come across many HOCD triggers that all end in groinal responses and ruminating. Right now I’m totally convinced that I’ll never feel love for my boyfriend again and that there’s no way I can’t be gay. I feel so defeated and so hopeless. I feel totally worthless and have no motivation or desire to do anything. I just want sleep every day away.