How to cure my OCD at home? Or will be able to? I can't go to a therapist because mental health is still a taboo in my area and I am only 17. Secondly, even if they agree to take me to the therapist... I'll have to open up about the previous relationships I've had and if my parents come to know about them, I am dead. It's a lose lose situation for me.

I would suggest getting a good ocd book and reading it. I'm currently reading "Break Free from OCD: Overcoming Obsessive Compulsive Disorder with CBT" which is one of the most recommended ones. Reading a good book might not (probably will not) cure your ocd but it is a good start in this mostly long and complicated journey. About your parents, have you talked to them at all about the issues you are experiencing? Like do they atleast know you are struggling?

Yes they know. My mom is insisting on taking me to a professional but my dad is disagreeing because I come from a conservative family where seeking a therapist means I am "crazy". Also, thank you so much. I'll definitely read this.

They don't have enough awareness and they actually hunt me down for being depressed because they think I am just being lazy and not putting my mind in studies (while I can't explain what a torture I am going through and it's hard to focus on anything else)

@lolocd If you have a therapist who specializes in ocd and anxiety disorders who you could go to I would suggest taking your mothers advice. I know how hard it can be (I did it) but it can be done and sometimes you just have to bite the bullet. Just make sure it's a therapist who knows about ocd and cbt/erp treatment.

@ocdalltheway But I am scared about the after math. What if my therapist tells my mother about my relationship...I am doomed. I'll have to wait till I get into college. :(