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I feel like I’m hanging on by a thread
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You can get through this. I'm here, on this app, because I too am in a very bad place but we cant give up hope. OCD doesn't define us. Actually dwelling on getting better cab also be a form of OCD. Vacation can be hard bc we are out of our comfort zone. I encourage you to go out and do the things you want today EVEN IF your mind is racing. Sit with them but try not to give into them. You WILL get through this. God bless you ❤
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@TiredMindOverMatter Thank you so much. We are actually driving back home and I don’t wanna go home lol and yeah I probably dwell on getting better too much. So I will be blasting some feel good music on the drive.
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- 4y
@Dre83 That's right! You got this! Ultimately we have to be comfortable with the uncertainty. We will never know and we have to get to the point where that doesn't steal our joy. Our past, our OCD, our intrusive thoughts... they do not define us. You seem very lovely and that's my impression of you ❤. Also (and ultimately most importantly) knowing that God is in control is such a great reminder for me!
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@TiredMindOverMatter My faith has become weak unfortunately. It was strong at the beginning but it has just been beaten down with all of this.
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@TiredMindOverMatter I want my faith to be stronger believe me.
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I’ve been here too so I know how helpless it can feel. I remember when I got to this point I realized medication might be something I needed—I was in denial about needing it for a while. Definitely get a therapist if you don’t have one yet, and maybe consider talking with a psychiatrist as well. You will get better, I promise. Even without these things, you will get better.
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Keep eating healthily and drinking lots of water. Try and get out and exercise and even try some new hobbies. Keeping your physical body healthy will allow your brain to become healthier as well.
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Thank you this shit is starting to wear on me and I’m having bouts of being depressed. I don’t have much high anxiety from the thoughts anymore but I still hate them. I’ve been seeing a therapist the whole time and I still do see one. I started seeing a psychiatric nurse practitioner to talk about medication but I’m still afraid of antidepressants from what I read about them. I definitely need to exercise as I haven’t been able to since I’m away on vacation and didn’t bring any workout clothes. I keep hearing everyone talk about this feeling better but it seems to escape me like I can put some good days together but I want more consistency.
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@Dre83 I think most importantly really be present in those moments when you do feel happy and calm and good. Consistency will come later. But being fully present in the good moments will make a huge difference. I was very afraid of taking antidepressants as well, but I genuinely benefitted so much from them. Not saying you must go on medication, but definitely consider the benefits/detriments of taking something. I didn’t realize how depressed I had become from my ocd thoughts until I went on medication and realized I hadn’t even felt legitimate hunger in almost a year. If ocd is not bothering you as much but depression is, you could even go on a very low dosage of an antidepressant and see improvements. As far as consistency, try and not look at it from this angle. Appreciate each day for itself—even people without ocd and depression struggle with having a consistently good time all the time. I promise things will be better, just keep on hanging on. I am so proud of you.
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@blueoceanpearl Thank you so much!
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- OCD Conqueror
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Well, know this. He's been with you this whole time. He leaves the 99 for you. He is waiting patiently and lovingly for you to turn and run to him. There is nothing you could ever do that would interfere with HOW VERY MUCH He loves you. 💘 That I CAN say with 1,000,000% certainty.
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Thank you 😊
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- 24w
I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?
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Hi Everyone! I hope whoever is reading this is having a good day so far :) So for years now I’ve had very bad intrusive thoughts about things that I have done or embarrassing things that I’ve said or have happened and it’s mortifying and debilitating on a daily basis. Specifically these thoughts are mainly things that have occurred from 2018-2020 and some are more simple just as a stupid joke I made or being way too loud on calls while my family was trying to sleep and others being way more complex such as past relationships and how I’ve hurt some of the people I care the most about and when I have acted on intrusive thoughts and these thoughts will appear with no triggers at all I’ll just wake up and already have something I did just nagging me. I don’t want to live like this anymore and I’ve tried working through it with self compassion but sometimes the things I said or did back then it’s very hard to forgive myself for and I’ll reminisce on it for hours on hours, gaslight myself into believing that’s not how it happened and try to change the memory itself, or just suppress it entirely. I know those habits aren’t healthy and truly I want to get better but I don’t know how to overcome some of these thoughts. I have talked to my fiancé about this a few times and even today we talked about it and he fully supports me and is helping me work through it. I might also contact my sister too, I don’t talk to her overly too much but ever since I was little she’s thought I’ve had ocd and was one of the people who made me consider that I might have it (I’m still undiagnosed but I’ll try to when I have the money and time) and I know she could maybe provide some insight. Another thing that is troublesome about the situation is my other family members specifically my mom aren’t the most helpful and can trigger thoughts. To put it in perspective on how her thought process is and some background info she is an ER nurse and has been for 30 years due to this she believes she knows mainly everything there is about mental health and she gets extremely upset when I don’t take her advice or set boundaries. She’ll force me to talk to her about my problems and when I don’t want to she’ll pin me in a corner where I’m forced to and last summer I had a really bad episode and was really overstimulated and I just finished taking a shower and due to the water on me, my hair being wet (my hair is naturally curly and it takes forever to dry and it’s very draining taking care of even with a keratin treatment) and all the intrusive thoughts I was having and she forced me to talk to her and I did open up for the first time about my thoughts and brought up how sometimes I have thoughts of hurting my animals and it makes me physically sick. Her response to this was threatening to call the cops on me saying it was a behavioral thing and I was doing it for attention. I have never hurt any of my animals but later that day my cat came into my room and a few minutes later she comes up just gives me the death stare and after a few seconds just asks me “are you going to go kill snickers?” In the most condescending tone and she’s always like this daily where she’ll force advice onto me or get upset and yell and then reinforce thoughts I’m having. I just want to know first how to stop the thoughts from so frequently and how to heal in an environmental where it keeps reopening wounds despite trying to place boundaries? I’m sorry this is really long I usually do go really in detail about things and it’s just how I’ve always been. If anyone has any questions feel free to ask and I’ll answer them to the best of my ability. I really appreciate the time you took to read this and thank you for your help! 🥰
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- 23w
Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?
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